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hey
yesterday I was on the way to see a friend when there was a incident on the road and the whole of camberwell was blocked off. The bus driver told us that we werent going to move for two hours. With no more money and no phone credit and had to walk all the way to brixton. Thankgod for my friend because she picked me up in the car from there. This is just an example of the unluckiness I seem to face everyday of my life and IM just getting sick of it. Its not severe unluckyness, I mean major car accident or serious illness it just seems to be the little things in life that are never easy.
Another example is waiting 5 hours for some weed for the guys car who was bringing it broke down for the first time since he had it.
I paid 5.90 for a ticket to woking only to find the barriers where open in both stations.
Losing the lead which allows me to charge my camcorder when I knbow for a FACT that I packed it away safely in a box a year ago - a year later I still look in the sdame box and it aint there.
The first mobile phone I ever had fell out of my pocket.
The first boy I ever loved loved my best friend and still does ( Im over it now believe)
When my granny brought me a diamond bracelet for my 18th I wore it out and it literally fell of my wrist on the way home.
My parents cancelled my driving test a week before I was to take it because they found out I missed one lesson and have a drug habit which makes them really aggressive and Im suppossed to be thankful.
The worst comedown I ever had I got stuck on a hot train for two hours with no money for a drink. Thankfully the staff started handing out free water and biscuits. a bit of luck I admit.
I got an STD when I was 16 even though I used condoms religiously ( its cured now)
I hadnt seen my granny for a year, I was so excited to see her on her 78th birthday as we were all going for lunch together but she died the night before ( more unlucky for her no doubt)
I got stung in the throat by a bee when I was three and almost died.
I got a rare eye disease called uveitus when I was eight. I was the youngest person ever to have it in briton.
I choked on a chip when I was 9 and went blue. My mum safed my life on the kitchen floor.
last year my student loan was a year late thanks to southwark council fuckin up. Hence the huge credit card bill.
My unluckiness seems to go on and on and smoem of them I dont doubt are purely my fault ( my credit card bill) but some of them as just so UNFAIR. I dont care if that sounds spoilt because thats how I feel right now.
Yesterday when I was walking to brixton in the blazing heat after the bus stopped I kept chanting under my breath ' why is it so hard to live and so easy to end it? Maybe this is god's joke.'
or maybe everyone has this bad luck. If I wrote a list of alll the good things that have happened to be it would prob be longer? Who knows.
I really want to cut. but I can't cause IM staying at my boyfriends. Need to feel that pain.
feeling funny
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maybe all this bad luck will turn around and something great will happen to me. Doubtful.
yesterday I was on the way to see a friend when there was a incident on the road and the whole of camberwell was blocked off. The bus driver told us that we werent going to move for two hours. With no more money and no phone credit and had to walk all the way to brixton. Thankgod for my friend because she picked me up in the car from there. This is just an example of the unluckiness I seem to face everyday of my life and IM just getting sick of it. Its not severe unluckyness, I mean major car accident or serious illness it just seems to be the little things in life that are never easy.
Another example is waiting 5 hours for some weed for the guys car who was bringing it broke down for the first time since he had it.
I paid 5.90 for a ticket to woking only to find the barriers where open in both stations.
Losing the lead which allows me to charge my camcorder when I knbow for a FACT that I packed it away safely in a box a year ago - a year later I still look in the sdame box and it aint there.
The first mobile phone I ever had fell out of my pocket.
The first boy I ever loved loved my best friend and still does ( Im over it now believe)
When my granny brought me a diamond bracelet for my 18th I wore it out and it literally fell of my wrist on the way home.
My parents cancelled my driving test a week before I was to take it because they found out I missed one lesson and have a drug habit which makes them really aggressive and Im suppossed to be thankful.
The worst comedown I ever had I got stuck on a hot train for two hours with no money for a drink. Thankfully the staff started handing out free water and biscuits. a bit of luck I admit.
I got an STD when I was 16 even though I used condoms religiously ( its cured now)
I hadnt seen my granny for a year, I was so excited to see her on her 78th birthday as we were all going for lunch together but she died the night before ( more unlucky for her no doubt)
I got stung in the throat by a bee when I was three and almost died.
I got a rare eye disease called uveitus when I was eight. I was the youngest person ever to have it in briton.
I choked on a chip when I was 9 and went blue. My mum safed my life on the kitchen floor.
last year my student loan was a year late thanks to southwark council fuckin up. Hence the huge credit card bill.
My unluckiness seems to go on and on and smoem of them I dont doubt are purely my fault ( my credit card bill) but some of them as just so UNFAIR. I dont care if that sounds spoilt because thats how I feel right now.
Yesterday when I was walking to brixton in the blazing heat after the bus stopped I kept chanting under my breath ' why is it so hard to live and so easy to end it? Maybe this is god's joke.'
or maybe everyone has this bad luck. If I wrote a list of alll the good things that have happened to be it would prob be longer? Who knows.
I really want to cut. but I can't cause IM staying at my boyfriends. Need to feel that pain.
feeling funny
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maybe all this bad luck will turn around and something great will happen to me. Doubtful.