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what a dunb weekend... i got absolutely nothing accomplished accept for smoking way too many cigarettes and gaining a couple lbs from all the beer that i drank.. its funny when i was supposed to "quit" smoking, i smoked a hell of alot more than i did before. its all mental.. i'll do it someday, just dont think im ready right now. i have no money and i spent too much on beer.even though i didnt spend that much..but any money being spent on alcohol is too much, right now. o well.i saw a bucnch of people that i havent seen in a long time but i didnt really care b/c it just reminded me why i dont see them any more. didnt get a job of course so im still fucked and out of money. im going to talk to my chefs on mon. maybe one of them will have something for me to do. ohterwise, i gues its gonna have to be hooter's.... oh well i'll make good money. but u know i talk about it like they will def. hire me... imagine if i finally went there and i didnt get the job... wow that would be sad.... if i cant get a job at hooter's than i really am pathetic. i have to go check out that bar that eddies been talking about... he says it s an R-Rated bar.. whatever thats supposed to be i have no idea.. probely just a bunch of half dressed cocktail waitresses flirting with dirty old men. i gues i could handle that for a little while.. make a bunch of money, and then get a respectible job somewhere nice that i could actually cook and not just drop frozen chicken wings into a deep fryer. i hate being broke and of all people i should be used to it b/c i never had money.. but i had people that took care of me. now i dont and its funny b/c i dont even want any body. ihave become very content spending my own money but thats hard to do when u run out of it. and i def. didn't suceed in my litttle mission, which is funny b/c there there could've been very good chances... but u know, shit happens... its probely better off any way. i just need to accomplish something that i have actually put my mind too.