These are questions from Laura:)
These were the hardest questions to answer ever.
1. What are you're weaknesses, and what are your fears? (and why?)
One of my biggest weaknesses is believing that i dont have any. I dont think im perfect of course, but ive been raised to have perfect confidence in myself and be my own person. Sometimes i look back on conversations i had or things i did and think to myself, what was i thinking, now that person is going to think i am such a bitch, because maybe i said something condescending or something. another weakness is loneliness. i suffer from it, especially this year when i had some problems with my friends and finding my place. i hate feeling like i dont belong and nobody wants me there. im usually pretty good at handling awkward situations and i am friendly when i am with people i dont know. but when i am with a bunch of people i do know, but not well, or who dont know me/ want to get to know me, i just dont know what to do with myself. one of my biggest fears is people not liking me for some reason or another. i want people to be honest with me and if i have suspicions that they are not, i get very insecure. i guess you could say im a people pleaser and i am scared of people not liking me, but that doesnt sound very good to me. another weakness is my inability to articulate myself well. so bear with me. another fear is that my life is going to waste. this fear comes up on days like today when i am sitting here doing nothing all day long, alone. i want to accomplish something in life and when i see other 17 year olds that have started organizations that raise money for a goos cause or are already really amazing athletes, i feel inadequate. its an overwhelming fear of not being good enough.
2. If you could do something over again, what would it be and how would you do it?
This may be a bit broad, but high school. I wouldnt say that i regret choices i made in high school, but i feel as though now i know more about myself and others so if i did it over again i would know how to have the best time possible. i have great friends now and i had great friends coming into high school, but i lost a whole bunch along the way. plus, there are more than 2,000 kids in my school and i dont know most of them. i dont even know every kid in my grade. i love meeting new people and making friends, but i dont feel as though ive done that to the greatest possible extent in these last 3 years. i dont feel as though i was true enough to myself these last 3 years. its as though my feel personality was muffled when i was in school. well, now that i think about it, it might be kinda tedious to redo these last 3 years, so maybe ill leave it as a reworking of specific friendships.
3. What's something you've always wanted to do and why?
i have a whole list of things, but i wont put most of them in here. (nothing to do with appropriateness) i have always wanted to ride in a hot air balloon, but i dont know if that is the answer you were looking for. ive always wanted to sit down and finish all my homework within an hour and do it well, so i can go to bed at a reasonable hour and feel refreshed and upbeat the next day. :) oh the daydreams of a high school junior... anyway, in all seriousness. ive always wanted to just completely expand my horizons, throw myself in a place where everything is completely new and turn it into the best time of my life. ive done the thing where i go somewhere and dont know anybody and i make all sorts of fancy new friends (camp) but it is a jewish camp, so we are all pretty much very similar people with very similar backgrounds. so i want to go to cananda or something. no that was a joke, i mean like africa or something. ive also always wanted to go on a long camping trip where i only have whatever i can fit into my backpack. i wouldnt go by myself of course, probably with my brother or something, but just to get out into nature and experience life with only the bare essentials.
4. How would you describe your perfect day?
80 degrees and sunny on peabody pond with my favorite people. :)
My perfect day would be one where i have nothing to do, but still feel as though ive accomplished something. I feel much better about myself when i go to bed at night feeling as though i did something meaningful during the day. i can never decide between summer and winter so we wont really discuss weather conditions except it has to be sunny. i would wake up early, but not feel tired and watch the sun rise. then go out with friends and do whatever spontaneuous and fun thing we can think of. we would definitely encounter some group of new kids and make instant new friends. there would be good food and ice cream involved for sure... and it would probably end with a bunch of my best friends starring at the stars and talking about life. how meaningful and corny. i havent experienced my perfect day yet, but it will include laughter. lots of it.
5. What is your favorite thing about yourself?
my tight ass. just kidding, cuz i have quite the volumtuous booty. well here is something that my mom pointed out about me that i definitely got from her. i like to be able to rely on myself to decide what i want to do and what is right. i dont just do things to make sure i end up in a group wth my friends, i make choices based on personal interest. im also pretty friendly and outgoing for the most part. im not very good at talking about myself though. i guess i try to put others before myself... because i know i will always have myself, but i wont necessarily have the people around me forever.
1. What are you're weaknesses, and what are your fears? (and why?)
One of my biggest weaknesses is believing that i dont have any. I dont think im perfect of course, but ive been raised to have perfect confidence in myself and be my own person. Sometimes i look back on conversations i had or things i did and think to myself, what was i thinking, now that person is going to think i am such a bitch, because maybe i said something condescending or something. another weakness is loneliness. i suffer from it, especially this year when i had some problems with my friends and finding my place. i hate feeling like i dont belong and nobody wants me there. im usually pretty good at handling awkward situations and i am friendly when i am with people i dont know. but when i am with a bunch of people i do know, but not well, or who dont know me/ want to get to know me, i just dont know what to do with myself. one of my biggest fears is people not liking me for some reason or another. i want people to be honest with me and if i have suspicions that they are not, i get very insecure. i guess you could say im a people pleaser and i am scared of people not liking me, but that doesnt sound very good to me. another weakness is my inability to articulate myself well. so bear with me. another fear is that my life is going to waste. this fear comes up on days like today when i am sitting here doing nothing all day long, alone. i want to accomplish something in life and when i see other 17 year olds that have started organizations that raise money for a goos cause or are already really amazing athletes, i feel inadequate. its an overwhelming fear of not being good enough.
2. If you could do something over again, what would it be and how would you do it?
This may be a bit broad, but high school. I wouldnt say that i regret choices i made in high school, but i feel as though now i know more about myself and others so if i did it over again i would know how to have the best time possible. i have great friends now and i had great friends coming into high school, but i lost a whole bunch along the way. plus, there are more than 2,000 kids in my school and i dont know most of them. i dont even know every kid in my grade. i love meeting new people and making friends, but i dont feel as though ive done that to the greatest possible extent in these last 3 years. i dont feel as though i was true enough to myself these last 3 years. its as though my feel personality was muffled when i was in school. well, now that i think about it, it might be kinda tedious to redo these last 3 years, so maybe ill leave it as a reworking of specific friendships.
3. What's something you've always wanted to do and why?
i have a whole list of things, but i wont put most of them in here. (nothing to do with appropriateness) i have always wanted to ride in a hot air balloon, but i dont know if that is the answer you were looking for. ive always wanted to sit down and finish all my homework within an hour and do it well, so i can go to bed at a reasonable hour and feel refreshed and upbeat the next day. :) oh the daydreams of a high school junior... anyway, in all seriousness. ive always wanted to just completely expand my horizons, throw myself in a place where everything is completely new and turn it into the best time of my life. ive done the thing where i go somewhere and dont know anybody and i make all sorts of fancy new friends (camp) but it is a jewish camp, so we are all pretty much very similar people with very similar backgrounds. so i want to go to cananda or something. no that was a joke, i mean like africa or something. ive also always wanted to go on a long camping trip where i only have whatever i can fit into my backpack. i wouldnt go by myself of course, probably with my brother or something, but just to get out into nature and experience life with only the bare essentials.
4. How would you describe your perfect day?
80 degrees and sunny on peabody pond with my favorite people. :)
My perfect day would be one where i have nothing to do, but still feel as though ive accomplished something. I feel much better about myself when i go to bed at night feeling as though i did something meaningful during the day. i can never decide between summer and winter so we wont really discuss weather conditions except it has to be sunny. i would wake up early, but not feel tired and watch the sun rise. then go out with friends and do whatever spontaneuous and fun thing we can think of. we would definitely encounter some group of new kids and make instant new friends. there would be good food and ice cream involved for sure... and it would probably end with a bunch of my best friends starring at the stars and talking about life. how meaningful and corny. i havent experienced my perfect day yet, but it will include laughter. lots of it.
5. What is your favorite thing about yourself?
my tight ass. just kidding, cuz i have quite the volumtuous booty. well here is something that my mom pointed out about me that i definitely got from her. i like to be able to rely on myself to decide what i want to do and what is right. i dont just do things to make sure i end up in a group wth my friends, i make choices based on personal interest. im also pretty friendly and outgoing for the most part. im not very good at talking about myself though. i guess i try to put others before myself... because i know i will always have myself, but i wont necessarily have the people around me forever.