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im babysitting... wishing i was the baby, im so tired and all i want to do is sleep. I suppose i could but that could make me, shit whats that word, when you ignore the person you are suppose to be attending to. i feel dumb. oh well ill blame it on fatigue.
today was stupid. i woke up at about 9 and did absolutely nothing all morning. its amazing how i still get emotional when i watch the mighty ducks even though ive seen it so many times. good movie. so i tried hw, that didnt work and i decided i needed to get out. i drove to north to watch soccer but ended up being bored and just hanging out with jesse. im happy about that, i havent seen that kid in a while and hes pretty cool. but when i was talking about my life with him, i realized how pathetic i sound. why should i get so upset about one or two people, when there are a million others out there. plus, i have myself, and i dont need to depend on a select few to make my life happy go lucky. i mean, clearly, they need a specific select few and i am not one of them. oh well. fuck that. i have friends that love me. you are just missing out. this teenagerhood will not go to waste. please, befriend me, i really am cool i promise. or if not cool, im nice. just try me, im not an intimidating person.
yeah so that was my revelation for the day. and that i shouldnt cry so much when i read books and watch sappy movies. and that beign sick sucks, but sleeping is good. ummm... i dont have anything else to say, for now.
sweet dreams :)
oh just one more thing... if anyone could reinstate the laughter into my life, thatd be really cool, thanks.
today was stupid. i woke up at about 9 and did absolutely nothing all morning. its amazing how i still get emotional when i watch the mighty ducks even though ive seen it so many times. good movie. so i tried hw, that didnt work and i decided i needed to get out. i drove to north to watch soccer but ended up being bored and just hanging out with jesse. im happy about that, i havent seen that kid in a while and hes pretty cool. but when i was talking about my life with him, i realized how pathetic i sound. why should i get so upset about one or two people, when there are a million others out there. plus, i have myself, and i dont need to depend on a select few to make my life happy go lucky. i mean, clearly, they need a specific select few and i am not one of them. oh well. fuck that. i have friends that love me. you are just missing out. this teenagerhood will not go to waste. please, befriend me, i really am cool i promise. or if not cool, im nice. just try me, im not an intimidating person.
yeah so that was my revelation for the day. and that i shouldnt cry so much when i read books and watch sappy movies. and that beign sick sucks, but sleeping is good. ummm... i dont have anything else to say, for now.
sweet dreams :)
oh just one more thing... if anyone could reinstate the laughter into my life, thatd be really cool, thanks.