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College searching this past monday and tuesday in NYC (and area).
Really weird.
I loved Eugene Lang
in the middle of Manhatten.
Adelphi was alright in Garden City.
I'm starting to think college is just a comforting, superficial label I am using for a displaced worry.
a worry like, what am I really deciding to do with my life?
Why go to college right away if I'm not sure of the direction I am going in?
Why blow $50,000 on that?
Maybe I will join the peace corp for a year.
I could do that.
I do not want to go to college as a comfort;
because it is more comforting to me then doing something out of the norm and seemingly drastic.
I have a worry
that I will die
and not have made a difference really at all.
I'm sure I've shared this with you before.
That I will decide it is most practical to become a business major
and become successful and hold a good position in one of the large corperations that is ruining our economy
and then find a fairly wealthy and still charming husband to raise kids with in a suburban area and feel good about ourselves because we recycle plastic bottles.
I probably just offended half the people in Medway.
Sorry.
I told my mom today that I wanted Videotape to be played at my funeral if I died any time soon
when we were in the car driving home from NY.
She told me to write it down or she'd forget it.
I think she is used to my morbid undertones.
Really weird.
I loved Eugene Lang
in the middle of Manhatten.
Adelphi was alright in Garden City.
I'm starting to think college is just a comforting, superficial label I am using for a displaced worry.
a worry like, what am I really deciding to do with my life?
Why go to college right away if I'm not sure of the direction I am going in?
Why blow $50,000 on that?
Maybe I will join the peace corp for a year.
I could do that.
I do not want to go to college as a comfort;
because it is more comforting to me then doing something out of the norm and seemingly drastic.
I have a worry
that I will die
and not have made a difference really at all.
I'm sure I've shared this with you before.
That I will decide it is most practical to become a business major
and become successful and hold a good position in one of the large corperations that is ruining our economy
and then find a fairly wealthy and still charming husband to raise kids with in a suburban area and feel good about ourselves because we recycle plastic bottles.
I probably just offended half the people in Medway.
Sorry.
I told my mom today that I wanted Videotape to be played at my funeral if I died any time soon
when we were in the car driving home from NY.
She told me to write it down or she'd forget it.
I think she is used to my morbid undertones.