Illusions of Love----Chapter Twelve
Title: Illusions of Love--Chapter Twelve
Characters: Jared, Jensen, Chris Kane, Genevieve and Danneel
Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural, the boys or the girls in this story
Warning: Violence, Non-con, Domestic Abuse
A/N: not beta'd, so pretty rough
A/N: Even the strongest person can be come a victim
A/N: **upcoming scenes may be triggering**
A/N: Bad word in this chapter
Chapter Twelve
Jared woke up terrified, tried to wrap his arms around his head to protect himself from attack, but groaned when pain flared up his hands straight through his shoulders. Setting of the stabbing pain in his head. He jolted when he felt hands on him.
"No, please don't." he whispered, squirming to get away.
"Mr. Padalecki, try to calm down for me."
Jared looked up at the unfamiliar voice. A matronly woman in her 60's with mousey brown hair smiled gently down at him.
"Just breath for me, that's it. Slow in slow out." she said. Jared did as asked and felt calm come over him, making breathing that much easier and a little less painful.
"If you need anything, just press this button and i or another floor nurse will be her in no time." the nurse said. He nodded very carefully. He relaxed back into the pillow, closed his eyes. but they popped back open as memories intruded. He was tired of being in pain, tired of lying to the people he loved, tired of not being him, and tired of not being loved and cherished. He was just plain tired. Jared cried himself to sleep that night and several nights after.
The next week Jared watched as his mama fussed around his hospital bed. She's been there almost every time he awoke. His father showed up but he dad to return back home for work. His brother Jeff couldn't get away but he called everyday and his sister would be flying in the next week to help when he was released. He heard from Erik , the cast and crew.
He heard from and received gifts from the Smallville crew, from his friends back home and from other actors but the one person he didn't hear from was his best friend. He was beginning to get nervous, why wouldn't Jensen come by? Did he have to film scenes? No, they wouldn't force him to do that, would they? He didn't think so, they were still on hiatus. There was a niggling thought at the back of his mind:
'You know why, your disgusting, pathetic thing. damaged and he wants nothing to do with you.'
Jared shook his head. No, no way would Jensen think that. Right? His breath hitched as these thought were going through his mind.
'He hates me, problely blames me. Doesn't want to be anywhere near me.'
"Jared honey, you need to calm down. Breath in and out slowly." his mama said
He stared into her yes as he attempted to get his breathing under control. She rubbed her hand gently up and down his arm.
"You want to tell me what got you so upset?" she asked him. He looked down at his casted hand. He still couldn't believe they broken his fingers. He flinched when his mama reached to tuck his hair behind his ear. He saw the sad look that she tried to hid behind a false and cheery smile.
"It's nothing mama." He tried to be convincing but by the look on her face he failed. The silence reined for awhile before he spoke.
"He hates me"
His mama looked at him strangely. "what are you talking about honey?"
"That's why Jensen hasn't been by to see me. It's because he thinks i'm disgusting." he mumbled, staring at his hands. His missed the look of pity that flashed across his mother's face.
"Jared, that's not true." She said as she continued to run her hand along his arm. She hoped that he found it soothing.
"Then why hasn't he come to see me?" he demanded.
"Honey, you know that he would be here if he could. it's just… things are complicated right now." his mother said.
Jared stared at her.
"What's complicated, mama? The fact that i wasn't strong enough to fight off a 4'9 waif? or that i couldn't stop her from ra…" He stopped his rant, he just couldn't say that word. It would make it real. Jared breathed in or at least he tried, but he couldn't catch his breath. In his panic, he forgot about the cast on his hand and practically bit through his tongue when he smashed his hand into his chin as he tried to claw at his throat.
"Jared, baby calm down." His mother tried to be soothing but in his panic Jared didn't recognize her and his anxiety rose. Mrs. Padalecki frantically called for help. After a few moments help finally arrived. They injected him with something and He knew no more.
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"No, please….stop!" Jared moved restlessly in the hospital bed. His whole body trembled as he tried to get away from his nightmares. Small groans and soft whimpers surfaced as he aggravated his injures.
"No, please don't." a small grunt of pain. "Stop….NO"
Jared woke up screaming. He jolted up but was overcome with pain, he slumped back against the pillow. Jaw clenched as he rode out the pain.
"Hey man, take it easy." a voice said from within the darkened room. Jared squinted as he tried to locate said person. At first he thought it was Jensen, but the voice wasn't right. Maybe he thought it was Jensen because it's who he most wanted to see. He needed his best friend and he couldn't help but be hurt by his absence. He strained to see in the dark and he could just make out a shape in the corner, but he would recognize that compact build anywhere. Jared's throat was so dry when he tried to speak it came out raspy.
"Chris?"
"Yeah man, it's me." Chris got up, grabbed a cup and filled it with water from the pitcher sitting on the bedside table, stuck a straw in it. He came up to the bed, pushed the button to raise the head of the bed to make it easier on his young friend. He mad sure it wasn't hurting Jared, though he saw the guy flinch just a little bit as Chris reached the cup out toward him.
"Chris, what are you doing here?" Jared asked. He watched as Chris moved a chair closer to the Bed. "And where is Jensen, is he with you?"
"He's unable to be here, but I know that he would be here if he could. It's just.." Chris trailed off as Jared said at the same time "it's complicated" Jared just nodded his head.
"Jared look…The doctors decided that you need no complications near you right now, that you need to focus on getting stronger and healthier and to that they said no distractions."
"Why would Jensen be a distraction?"
"What do you remember of that night?" Chris asked after a moment. Jared didn't like the look on his friends face. He really didn't like thinking about that night. His hands started to shake.
"I don't want to talk about that night." Jared said. Chris watched as the injured man began to tremble. He nodded, but if the kid wanted to know, then it has to be brought up.
"We cam in after you went through the glass patio door. That bitch and her thug were all over you" Chris ignored the flinch Jared tried to hide.
"You were nearly out, i grabbed the guy and Jensen pushed Gen away from you. I believe you were completely out by that time. Jensen went to you but your wife got up, grabbed the hallway lamp." Chris trailed off again. Jared watched him, saw what he thought was regret? or Guilt shadow his features. Chris took a moment then continued speaking.
"She came up behind Jensen and slammed the lamp into the back of his head."
Jared stared at him for a moment, not really understanding what his friend was saying, but before he could ask, Chris spoke.
"There was nothing I could do. I had my hands full of that bastard thug, he kept trying to escape. There wasn't anything i could do."
Jared became alarmed as a tear worked it's way down his friends face. He took a gulping breath.
"What are you saying?" Jared whispered. No, he couldn't mean… he shook his head. "no, no, no" he murmured. He looked at Chris.
"What are you saying" he repeated forcefully. Chris cringed at the tone. He swallowed a couple of times before he spoke.
"He's….He's in a coma Jared."
tbc
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A/N: I'm so sorry this is like 4 months late. I've lost my muse on this story. I've also got sucked into the fandom of White Collar and have a White collar/Glee crossover going. right now it's over at fanfiction.net but i will post it to live journal once it's completely done if anyone's interested in that. Thanks so much for reading and please leave comments. Thanks for staying with me:)
Characters: Jared, Jensen, Chris Kane, Genevieve and Danneel
Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural, the boys or the girls in this story
Warning: Violence, Non-con, Domestic Abuse
A/N: not beta'd, so pretty rough
A/N: Even the strongest person can be come a victim
A/N: **upcoming scenes may be triggering**
A/N: Bad word in this chapter
Chapter Twelve
Jared woke up terrified, tried to wrap his arms around his head to protect himself from attack, but groaned when pain flared up his hands straight through his shoulders. Setting of the stabbing pain in his head. He jolted when he felt hands on him.
"No, please don't." he whispered, squirming to get away.
"Mr. Padalecki, try to calm down for me."
Jared looked up at the unfamiliar voice. A matronly woman in her 60's with mousey brown hair smiled gently down at him.
"Just breath for me, that's it. Slow in slow out." she said. Jared did as asked and felt calm come over him, making breathing that much easier and a little less painful.
"If you need anything, just press this button and i or another floor nurse will be her in no time." the nurse said. He nodded very carefully. He relaxed back into the pillow, closed his eyes. but they popped back open as memories intruded. He was tired of being in pain, tired of lying to the people he loved, tired of not being him, and tired of not being loved and cherished. He was just plain tired. Jared cried himself to sleep that night and several nights after.
The next week Jared watched as his mama fussed around his hospital bed. She's been there almost every time he awoke. His father showed up but he dad to return back home for work. His brother Jeff couldn't get away but he called everyday and his sister would be flying in the next week to help when he was released. He heard from Erik , the cast and crew.
He heard from and received gifts from the Smallville crew, from his friends back home and from other actors but the one person he didn't hear from was his best friend. He was beginning to get nervous, why wouldn't Jensen come by? Did he have to film scenes? No, they wouldn't force him to do that, would they? He didn't think so, they were still on hiatus. There was a niggling thought at the back of his mind:
'You know why, your disgusting, pathetic thing. damaged and he wants nothing to do with you.'
Jared shook his head. No, no way would Jensen think that. Right? His breath hitched as these thought were going through his mind.
'He hates me, problely blames me. Doesn't want to be anywhere near me.'
"Jared honey, you need to calm down. Breath in and out slowly." his mama said
He stared into her yes as he attempted to get his breathing under control. She rubbed her hand gently up and down his arm.
"You want to tell me what got you so upset?" she asked him. He looked down at his casted hand. He still couldn't believe they broken his fingers. He flinched when his mama reached to tuck his hair behind his ear. He saw the sad look that she tried to hid behind a false and cheery smile.
"It's nothing mama." He tried to be convincing but by the look on her face he failed. The silence reined for awhile before he spoke.
"He hates me"
His mama looked at him strangely. "what are you talking about honey?"
"That's why Jensen hasn't been by to see me. It's because he thinks i'm disgusting." he mumbled, staring at his hands. His missed the look of pity that flashed across his mother's face.
"Jared, that's not true." She said as she continued to run her hand along his arm. She hoped that he found it soothing.
"Then why hasn't he come to see me?" he demanded.
"Honey, you know that he would be here if he could. it's just… things are complicated right now." his mother said.
Jared stared at her.
"What's complicated, mama? The fact that i wasn't strong enough to fight off a 4'9 waif? or that i couldn't stop her from ra…" He stopped his rant, he just couldn't say that word. It would make it real. Jared breathed in or at least he tried, but he couldn't catch his breath. In his panic, he forgot about the cast on his hand and practically bit through his tongue when he smashed his hand into his chin as he tried to claw at his throat.
"Jared, baby calm down." His mother tried to be soothing but in his panic Jared didn't recognize her and his anxiety rose. Mrs. Padalecki frantically called for help. After a few moments help finally arrived. They injected him with something and He knew no more.
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"No, please….stop!" Jared moved restlessly in the hospital bed. His whole body trembled as he tried to get away from his nightmares. Small groans and soft whimpers surfaced as he aggravated his injures.
"No, please don't." a small grunt of pain. "Stop….NO"
Jared woke up screaming. He jolted up but was overcome with pain, he slumped back against the pillow. Jaw clenched as he rode out the pain.
"Hey man, take it easy." a voice said from within the darkened room. Jared squinted as he tried to locate said person. At first he thought it was Jensen, but the voice wasn't right. Maybe he thought it was Jensen because it's who he most wanted to see. He needed his best friend and he couldn't help but be hurt by his absence. He strained to see in the dark and he could just make out a shape in the corner, but he would recognize that compact build anywhere. Jared's throat was so dry when he tried to speak it came out raspy.
"Chris?"
"Yeah man, it's me." Chris got up, grabbed a cup and filled it with water from the pitcher sitting on the bedside table, stuck a straw in it. He came up to the bed, pushed the button to raise the head of the bed to make it easier on his young friend. He mad sure it wasn't hurting Jared, though he saw the guy flinch just a little bit as Chris reached the cup out toward him.
"Chris, what are you doing here?" Jared asked. He watched as Chris moved a chair closer to the Bed. "And where is Jensen, is he with you?"
"He's unable to be here, but I know that he would be here if he could. It's just.." Chris trailed off as Jared said at the same time "it's complicated" Jared just nodded his head.
"Jared look…The doctors decided that you need no complications near you right now, that you need to focus on getting stronger and healthier and to that they said no distractions."
"Why would Jensen be a distraction?"
"What do you remember of that night?" Chris asked after a moment. Jared didn't like the look on his friends face. He really didn't like thinking about that night. His hands started to shake.
"I don't want to talk about that night." Jared said. Chris watched as the injured man began to tremble. He nodded, but if the kid wanted to know, then it has to be brought up.
"We cam in after you went through the glass patio door. That bitch and her thug were all over you" Chris ignored the flinch Jared tried to hide.
"You were nearly out, i grabbed the guy and Jensen pushed Gen away from you. I believe you were completely out by that time. Jensen went to you but your wife got up, grabbed the hallway lamp." Chris trailed off again. Jared watched him, saw what he thought was regret? or Guilt shadow his features. Chris took a moment then continued speaking.
"She came up behind Jensen and slammed the lamp into the back of his head."
Jared stared at him for a moment, not really understanding what his friend was saying, but before he could ask, Chris spoke.
"There was nothing I could do. I had my hands full of that bastard thug, he kept trying to escape. There wasn't anything i could do."
Jared became alarmed as a tear worked it's way down his friends face. He took a gulping breath.
"What are you saying?" Jared whispered. No, he couldn't mean… he shook his head. "no, no, no" he murmured. He looked at Chris.
"What are you saying" he repeated forcefully. Chris cringed at the tone. He swallowed a couple of times before he spoke.
"He's….He's in a coma Jared."
tbc
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A/N: I'm so sorry this is like 4 months late. I've lost my muse on this story. I've also got sucked into the fandom of White Collar and have a White collar/Glee crossover going. right now it's over at fanfiction.net but i will post it to live journal once it's completely done if anyone's interested in that. Thanks so much for reading and please leave comments. Thanks for staying with me:)