you're running out of places to hide from me
....i lost my fear of falling...
it's thanksgiving
my favorite holidae (tied for first actually, with easter...i have my reasons)
*note-i just smelled burning wood and realized that my flat iron was burning my desk. awesome!!*
this morning has been....well, pretty terrible. we can just blame it on my period and the lack of food. it's not a good combo.
i'd just like the livejournal community to know that i dont lie. i have no reason to. maybe you should be more concerned with what i'm not saying. over the summer someone was posting shit in their livejournal about my bro and they were saying some terrible stuff, like shit you'd get arrested for doing. all of it untrue. i said something to this person and they got rid of the journal completely. are we seeing how this is different?
ashley pointed out to me this morning that i am awesome. i made it through highschool without major trauma, i graduated college with a degree in math, i have a job that pays me enough to live my life the way i know i should, i have a car sittin on dubbs, i have the sickest friends, i have an awesome family. She didnt mention that i have awesome hair, but i know she was thinking it. i'm in good shape-i run 3 miles a day and elipt for 20 minutes after that then lift! so what if my arms are tiny, it helps when i call them "guns" i think. all of these things are very important to me. i wouldnt just throw them away for a guy. even if jake gylenhal wanted to ditch kirsten for me but i'd have to up and leave, i'd have to set him straight. i'd be all "jake, you're the shit and all but, this is who i am. I am my family, i am my friends, i am the gym, i am my awesome hair, i am my awesome clothes (the job? not so much right now, but if i was in fashion photography, i'd be that too). without those things, i'd just be your girlfriend. you dont want me for that, you want me for who i am right now."
i'm never going to make excuses for a guy again, i'm really not going to do it. if they are afraid to hang with my fam like matt was, he's either going to have to learn to grow up or atleast try. or its the highway.
i have to get out of my room, theres a bag of hugs next to my computer and its bad news. so is this outfit. i wish the camera was in my room still. i'll describe: my diesels, rolled up cause i wore them w my uggs last night, animal print slippers, cream western style button down with pink flowers and my black sequined shrug. i know, i know. i really shouldnt be allowed to dress myself.
i just want you people to know that i know i've been in a bad mood recently, today is going to be really hard for me due to lack of nani. i hate seeing my family upset and it kills me to see anyone i love cry.
this would be so easy if i could just shut off my dreams at night.
i don't have the energy to be mad at you anymore.
it's thanksgiving
my favorite holidae (tied for first actually, with easter...i have my reasons)
*note-i just smelled burning wood and realized that my flat iron was burning my desk. awesome!!*
this morning has been....well, pretty terrible. we can just blame it on my period and the lack of food. it's not a good combo.
i'd just like the livejournal community to know that i dont lie. i have no reason to. maybe you should be more concerned with what i'm not saying. over the summer someone was posting shit in their livejournal about my bro and they were saying some terrible stuff, like shit you'd get arrested for doing. all of it untrue. i said something to this person and they got rid of the journal completely. are we seeing how this is different?
ashley pointed out to me this morning that i am awesome. i made it through highschool without major trauma, i graduated college with a degree in math, i have a job that pays me enough to live my life the way i know i should, i have a car sittin on dubbs, i have the sickest friends, i have an awesome family. She didnt mention that i have awesome hair, but i know she was thinking it. i'm in good shape-i run 3 miles a day and elipt for 20 minutes after that then lift! so what if my arms are tiny, it helps when i call them "guns" i think. all of these things are very important to me. i wouldnt just throw them away for a guy. even if jake gylenhal wanted to ditch kirsten for me but i'd have to up and leave, i'd have to set him straight. i'd be all "jake, you're the shit and all but, this is who i am. I am my family, i am my friends, i am the gym, i am my awesome hair, i am my awesome clothes (the job? not so much right now, but if i was in fashion photography, i'd be that too). without those things, i'd just be your girlfriend. you dont want me for that, you want me for who i am right now."
i'm never going to make excuses for a guy again, i'm really not going to do it. if they are afraid to hang with my fam like matt was, he's either going to have to learn to grow up or atleast try. or its the highway.
i have to get out of my room, theres a bag of hugs next to my computer and its bad news. so is this outfit. i wish the camera was in my room still. i'll describe: my diesels, rolled up cause i wore them w my uggs last night, animal print slippers, cream western style button down with pink flowers and my black sequined shrug. i know, i know. i really shouldnt be allowed to dress myself.
i just want you people to know that i know i've been in a bad mood recently, today is going to be really hard for me due to lack of nani. i hate seeing my family upset and it kills me to see anyone i love cry.
this would be so easy if i could just shut off my dreams at night.
i don't have the energy to be mad at you anymore.