Settling In...

[leahbean197]

More than just moving. I'm going to have to settle into a new routine. I'm terribly nervous. There is nothing I can not handle. I just have to keep reminding myself of this. I had a date tonight, I told the guy I didn't want to see him anymore. I knew I was going to have to do that. Then when I talked to David he almost said the same thing. Makes me kind of sad. His friendship is one I don't want to lose. Not right now. I was talking to Emilee earlier tonight and I realized that in my life right now, he's the type of person I need. I told him that I can handle being just friends. I know that I can do it, I understand what it is to be busy and not have time to get involved with someone... especially someone you don't have feelings for. He does not have feelings for me. I'm ok with that. He said something rather harsh to me, when at first he said nothing at all. When I commented on his coldness he made his harsh comment. I'm sure he heard my heart shatter. I also think he thinks that's what he needed to do to me. It wasn't really mean so much as abrasive. I'll deal with it though and give him his space. I was silly to think something might actually come of our relationship. I just don't want to lose him altogether and I know that it will be best that we stay just friends because when classes start up I'll be busy with that and I won't want to have to deal with what he can give me. I'm going to be ok.

I hung out with Emilee tonight. It was fantastic.

I have too much on my mind to continue. Most of it isn't your damn business anyway :)