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All of this great stuff is happening:
Leon is loving the work i'm doing on Faustus and we hang out.
I have the Plane Ticket for PRAGUE for this summer...5 weeks in the Czech!
My play was selected for the New Play Project this summer which means it will be directed and performed by my fellow students.
I have a great schedule i'll be signing up for tomorrow for next fall...
and i graduate in a year.
but i don't have anyone to share it with...
my friends, my peers...frankly don't really care. they give a half-hearted "congrats" when i'm fricken bursting wiht excitment. and those who once used to care...who KNOW how much this means to me...can barely muster up a smile.
i'm not expecting a huge response or anything. but if they could at least act happy for me for once second...something honest, and sincere. instead of making me feel like an idiot because of gushing over the fact that i'm starting to find myself in the world of theatre.
if nuggit were here at least i'd have that one person to be happy for me...TRULY happy. she's up in marquette right now rehearsing a marimba concert WITH MY BROTHER! my big brother and my best, most closest sisser-face friend will be performing on stage together. and i can't be there. but i'll be thinking of them the whole time. two of the people i love most in this world...NOTHING could make me prouder or happier.
don't get me wrong...this isn't a pity-post. i realize everyone is crazy busy with their own stuff...but would it kill someone to at least smile for me? i mean honestly give me a smile and say they're proud of me. or do people really not realize how big of a step this is? how much this means to me? i'm finally taking control of my life. i'm examining it, putting it out there to be judged...
and so dies my frustration.
have a good day everyone.
Leon is loving the work i'm doing on Faustus and we hang out.
I have the Plane Ticket for PRAGUE for this summer...5 weeks in the Czech!
My play was selected for the New Play Project this summer which means it will be directed and performed by my fellow students.
I have a great schedule i'll be signing up for tomorrow for next fall...
and i graduate in a year.
but i don't have anyone to share it with...
my friends, my peers...frankly don't really care. they give a half-hearted "congrats" when i'm fricken bursting wiht excitment. and those who once used to care...who KNOW how much this means to me...can barely muster up a smile.
i'm not expecting a huge response or anything. but if they could at least act happy for me for once second...something honest, and sincere. instead of making me feel like an idiot because of gushing over the fact that i'm starting to find myself in the world of theatre.
if nuggit were here at least i'd have that one person to be happy for me...TRULY happy. she's up in marquette right now rehearsing a marimba concert WITH MY BROTHER! my big brother and my best, most closest sisser-face friend will be performing on stage together. and i can't be there. but i'll be thinking of them the whole time. two of the people i love most in this world...NOTHING could make me prouder or happier.
don't get me wrong...this isn't a pity-post. i realize everyone is crazy busy with their own stuff...but would it kill someone to at least smile for me? i mean honestly give me a smile and say they're proud of me. or do people really not realize how big of a step this is? how much this means to me? i'm finally taking control of my life. i'm examining it, putting it out there to be judged...
and so dies my frustration.
have a good day everyone.