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so the reality of my possible health problems is settling in...
am not really sure what to think about it and there is not much there except for the fear. the fear that i am going to hear something i do not want to hear. maybe the truth. who knows.
what i do know is that i am not quite as shocked anymore and am beginning to feel the anxiety surmounting...and the feelings of depression too. perhaps this latter is just a symptom of my heart/lung/whatever it is condition. but i do know that the feelings are coming.
at this point i am looking inside myself to draw enough strength to make it through the end of this semester. i feel fatigued. my appetite is not quite the same. and i have horrible insomnia. not to mention my blurry vision, shortness of breath, chills, chest pain and sudden panic attacks.
i wonder what is in store for me through these holidays. i am a bit perplexed at how all this came about so suddenly. and after i already had other things on my mind.
i have learned that life deals you things in 3s. #1 heart being crushed #2 health problems.... whats next?
am not really sure what to think about it and there is not much there except for the fear. the fear that i am going to hear something i do not want to hear. maybe the truth. who knows.
what i do know is that i am not quite as shocked anymore and am beginning to feel the anxiety surmounting...and the feelings of depression too. perhaps this latter is just a symptom of my heart/lung/whatever it is condition. but i do know that the feelings are coming.
at this point i am looking inside myself to draw enough strength to make it through the end of this semester. i feel fatigued. my appetite is not quite the same. and i have horrible insomnia. not to mention my blurry vision, shortness of breath, chills, chest pain and sudden panic attacks.
i wonder what is in store for me through these holidays. i am a bit perplexed at how all this came about so suddenly. and after i already had other things on my mind.
i have learned that life deals you things in 3s. #1 heart being crushed #2 health problems.... whats next?