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I have been very happy lately...with the exception of a couple things bringing me down.
I wonder if we're both wondering who needs to make some effort. That's not all I wonder. It's so strange and I'm wondering if I should try to see it as normal. That would be very sad.
Sometimes we put more effort into perfect strangers than into the people we are supposed to care most about, the people who care most about us. But I guess that's making friends. Or is it losing friends?
It would take years to develop a friendship mildly comparable to that friendship. It took years for that friendship to get where it was. And only one night to get it where it is. Plus day after day of letting it rest where it fell.
Are we replacing? Are we compensating for our lonliness while we don't know what to do?
No idea. No idea what to do. What?
Will there be a day when we'll say fuck it and be fine again?
Or will there be a day when we suck fuck it cause we're fine with it?
I wonder if we're both wondering who needs to make some effort. That's not all I wonder. It's so strange and I'm wondering if I should try to see it as normal. That would be very sad.
Sometimes we put more effort into perfect strangers than into the people we are supposed to care most about, the people who care most about us. But I guess that's making friends. Or is it losing friends?
It would take years to develop a friendship mildly comparable to that friendship. It took years for that friendship to get where it was. And only one night to get it where it is. Plus day after day of letting it rest where it fell.
Are we replacing? Are we compensating for our lonliness while we don't know what to do?
No idea. No idea what to do. What?
Will there be a day when we'll say fuck it and be fine again?
Or will there be a day when we suck fuck it cause we're fine with it?