Jun 20, 2005 22:37
I will never make an excuse for anyone, ever again. It is degrading enough to make one for myself. But only I know my intentions. No, I will never truly know anyone elses.
I am broken of my ignorance, and by my own strength, I will not be stupid. It does always stand that I will be understanding and considerate. But I am trying first and foremost, now, to be understanding of myself, considerate of myself.
The last time you walked beside me I do not know, but I do know the last time I asked, I was denied.
I do not prefer such a bitter taste so I will simply spit it out. I will accept that my happiness does not depend on anyone else, and be thankful for it. I am also thankful for those who care to see me happy, who are also happy when I am.
For so long I wanted to believe, and I put every word I had into cheap justifications. Amazing how authenticity needs no one to speak for it.