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again and again and again and again i see your face in everything
and i wonder if i'll ever be happy, truly. and then i realize, this is me now. i can't undo the effect you had on me, that now, is what i am. i need the strength to warn any new person in my life. the old standards do not apply. everything i lvoed about myself is gone. i have nothing to offer and im not so sure i will respect what anyone else may give. won't it be fantastic, when i treat someone who cares for me the way you treated me.
it started with her, an undeserving bitch. havoc has gone far. let's keep this train of pain going because we're told to move forward. oh, you want to be understanding? actions speak louder than words and you sound sincere, it won't be sweetly, but i might be whispering.
blah.
god damn it.
and i wonder if i'll ever be happy, truly. and then i realize, this is me now. i can't undo the effect you had on me, that now, is what i am. i need the strength to warn any new person in my life. the old standards do not apply. everything i lvoed about myself is gone. i have nothing to offer and im not so sure i will respect what anyone else may give. won't it be fantastic, when i treat someone who cares for me the way you treated me.
it started with her, an undeserving bitch. havoc has gone far. let's keep this train of pain going because we're told to move forward. oh, you want to be understanding? actions speak louder than words and you sound sincere, it won't be sweetly, but i might be whispering.
blah.
god damn it.