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erm hi.
i hate school.
periods one through four are sleep through's, but then i have photography and lunch. i live soley for those 2 classes. photo class is amazing. it took me a while to get a good pinhole camera picture, but on wednesday i finally got one. it's pretty shitty, but alright for a first. i don't count the ones that turned completely black. yesterday i took a picture of a chair, and another one of a bookshelf. the one of the chair, i am in love with. the one of the bookshelf is alright but is MISSING IN ACTION. i can't find it but hopefully it shows up. for lunch i stay in photo class. to take more pictures with the pinhole, to make cool prints, to chill in the darkroom. me and becca are cooler than you, we eat after playing with chemicals. i love the smell of darkroom, i have it on my hands and clothes for the rest of the day after 5th period. i don't mind, i think it smells wonnnnnnnderful. afterwards is government and then geometry. both ehhhhhhh classes. i hate school, it's already getting so monotonous. i already am irritated and want a break.
but back to what i was saying..to put it bluntly, i've become obsessed with having my own darkroom and making another pinhole camera, one for school, one for here.
all i've been doing online is researching how to's and such. i've been literally itching for some photo action. you have nooo idea.
i freaking love it
this is what i want to do.
in other news, i got pissed after school today because i thought me and becca made plans during 5th/6th pd today, so i waited at our corner for 10 minutes but she never showed. jake passed and im like "jake you wanna wait for me til becca gets here" he's like no. gee, what a great kid. i stood there like an idiot, waiting for someone who wasn't coming, while i felt like a loser. all by myself. i hate that feeling. i also hate seeing all the other people, walking with their friends, going someplace. hate it. hate it.
after i saw that there was like one group of kids left, a kind i do not like, i left. all pissy the whole way home. i got home, said hi to my dog, and got on the computer. i found myself reading someone's xanga, and that always depresses me. it always seems like everyone's having more fun than me. which isn't true. they're not jumping for joy every second of the day. but i just got depressed and sat until jake got home.
now that i thought about it though, becca and i didn't really solidify our plans. maybe she thought i thought it wasn't going to happen. anyways she hasn't been online and i called her house 4 times; no one is answering at her house and she is missing in action. dubtef. we were gonna make our photojournals, complete with pictures taken by me and her and just things i love and whatnot. i gotta get that shit done. plus i want to be happy, with her. with her i am smiling. without her, i'm most defintely not.
tonight, my mom, jake & i are going to the coltun's to have a family gettogether because i heart the coltuns. they're good kids. from a super secret source, i heard there was gonna be cake for me and jake's birthday which was a month ago. but duude. i freaking want some cake. but not more than i want my own darkroom complete with an already made pinhole camera.
i think i'll read in my room. in my cozy bed. i'm starting to get depressed, just sitting here.
yep, i'm definetly getting in my cozy, warm bed.
ps- tooooootally didn't mean to make a whole entry like this.
i hate school.
periods one through four are sleep through's, but then i have photography and lunch. i live soley for those 2 classes. photo class is amazing. it took me a while to get a good pinhole camera picture, but on wednesday i finally got one. it's pretty shitty, but alright for a first. i don't count the ones that turned completely black. yesterday i took a picture of a chair, and another one of a bookshelf. the one of the chair, i am in love with. the one of the bookshelf is alright but is MISSING IN ACTION. i can't find it but hopefully it shows up. for lunch i stay in photo class. to take more pictures with the pinhole, to make cool prints, to chill in the darkroom. me and becca are cooler than you, we eat after playing with chemicals. i love the smell of darkroom, i have it on my hands and clothes for the rest of the day after 5th period. i don't mind, i think it smells wonnnnnnnderful. afterwards is government and then geometry. both ehhhhhhh classes. i hate school, it's already getting so monotonous. i already am irritated and want a break.
but back to what i was saying..to put it bluntly, i've become obsessed with having my own darkroom and making another pinhole camera, one for school, one for here.
all i've been doing online is researching how to's and such. i've been literally itching for some photo action. you have nooo idea.
i freaking love it
this is what i want to do.
in other news, i got pissed after school today because i thought me and becca made plans during 5th/6th pd today, so i waited at our corner for 10 minutes but she never showed. jake passed and im like "jake you wanna wait for me til becca gets here" he's like no. gee, what a great kid. i stood there like an idiot, waiting for someone who wasn't coming, while i felt like a loser. all by myself. i hate that feeling. i also hate seeing all the other people, walking with their friends, going someplace. hate it. hate it.
after i saw that there was like one group of kids left, a kind i do not like, i left. all pissy the whole way home. i got home, said hi to my dog, and got on the computer. i found myself reading someone's xanga, and that always depresses me. it always seems like everyone's having more fun than me. which isn't true. they're not jumping for joy every second of the day. but i just got depressed and sat until jake got home.
now that i thought about it though, becca and i didn't really solidify our plans. maybe she thought i thought it wasn't going to happen. anyways she hasn't been online and i called her house 4 times; no one is answering at her house and she is missing in action. dubtef. we were gonna make our photojournals, complete with pictures taken by me and her and just things i love and whatnot. i gotta get that shit done. plus i want to be happy, with her. with her i am smiling. without her, i'm most defintely not.
tonight, my mom, jake & i are going to the coltun's to have a family gettogether because i heart the coltuns. they're good kids. from a super secret source, i heard there was gonna be cake for me and jake's birthday which was a month ago. but duude. i freaking want some cake. but not more than i want my own darkroom complete with an already made pinhole camera.
i think i'll read in my room. in my cozy bed. i'm starting to get depressed, just sitting here.
yep, i'm definetly getting in my cozy, warm bed.
ps- tooooootally didn't mean to make a whole entry like this.