The wait.. Take two.
They said that the MPL was horrible and they may have to curve the passing rate... But oh God what if I don't even make the curve...?
Bloody fuck on a fucking cracker.
The day after the exam, I just stayed in bed at the Katipunan condo. I wanted to rot like a mushroom and then just die. Well, I did go out and buy 'Beautiful Creatures' and ate alone at Kenny Rogers,... but I went back and slept through the afternoon. The day after, I managed to wrangle myself out of bed and do my part for the Batch clearance. I still have make-up to do and things the Department just won't let go, but hey... A year off does get a load of pressure off my shoulders.
Today I just managed to pass the clearances to L, and took the free shuttle to Global City then to Ayala. I bought 'Eleanor & Park' and unfortunately, 'Everyday'. (Unfortunate because apparently, my sister already had a copy of 'Everyday'... Well, how the hell would I know? I haven't read anything nonmedical since July in San Francisco. Which was 'The statistical probability of falling in love at first sight', btw.)
I spent the next... 4 hours eating 'E&P' rather the banana chocolate muffin at CBTL, while waiting for my Dad to finish work. I told him I ran around the mall then bought the books, but I didn't actually do any 'running around'. I stayed in the coffee shop oblivious to the sky turn from blue to orange to black. The book was so highschool, it was making me giggle like an imbecile. Not that I didn't feel like an imbecile post exam already. It was a lovely book. The kind of fuzzy read that makes you remember what it was like when you were sixteen and in-love. (I'm like a puddle of WTF and Aww already)
So now I'm home: Uncertain darkness looms overhead while waiting for the results, as I eat my way through non medical books just to make everyday seem like there's still hope. Hope not just in the exam but in everything else: Life, Love, Career... Future.
Busy day tomorrow. *Sigh*