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All I've been doing for the past week is crying.
Out of nowhere, my emotions just collapse into one big puddle on my face and my pillow.
It's not like I even have stress in my life.
But lately, all I have felt is mad, and frustruated, and sad. Plain sad.
I'm a shitty person. I'm mean to my mom who does everything for me, I'm not and never will be the perfect friend and I constantly feel like I'm not doing enough for the people that love me the most.
I don't even want to ramble about this. It is different for different aspects of my life.
Right now I am the protagonist AND the antagonist and I can't deal with it.
We've all stopped considering each others' feelings it seems. And for those of you who know me well, you know that I can not possibly go through this fighting and making-up infinitely again.
Yes, I am one of the strongest people I know.
No, I am not ready to fight off another nightmare of a year.
Im stuck inbetween right and wrong, and I'm coping with it in all the wrong ways.
Today is a day of honesty,
and today, I honestly hate myself.
Out of nowhere, my emotions just collapse into one big puddle on my face and my pillow.
It's not like I even have stress in my life.
But lately, all I have felt is mad, and frustruated, and sad. Plain sad.
I'm a shitty person. I'm mean to my mom who does everything for me, I'm not and never will be the perfect friend and I constantly feel like I'm not doing enough for the people that love me the most.
I don't even want to ramble about this. It is different for different aspects of my life.
Right now I am the protagonist AND the antagonist and I can't deal with it.
We've all stopped considering each others' feelings it seems. And for those of you who know me well, you know that I can not possibly go through this fighting and making-up infinitely again.
Yes, I am one of the strongest people I know.
No, I am not ready to fight off another nightmare of a year.
Im stuck inbetween right and wrong, and I'm coping with it in all the wrong ways.
Today is a day of honesty,
and today, I honestly hate myself.