I hate being a banana. Why can't I be mango instead?
SOMEONE ON THE INTERNET SAYS MY GRAMMAR IS BAD.
I've never been so embarrassed and mortified. THE SAD THING IS THAT, no matter how much I try to improve my English and try to be better than an average Singaporean (mind you, our standards are way low. Can't be blamed, we only had it official for 45 years). At the end of the day, I am still below average than the average person residing in an English-speaking country. And that makes me frustrated, sad and angry. WHY, WHY, WHY.
That idiot also said "Maybe you're not from an English-speaking place". OH YES I AM, I AM. THE ONLY PLACE IN ASIA WHERE OUR FIRST LANG IS ENGLISH. The fact is- we haven't been speaking it for very long that's all. My mom can't speak a string of fluent English. My dad only picked it up at work. Most people in school speak Mandarin and those are not superior sources to be around, at all.
Thank you internet for expanding my vocabulary, but nothing from you teaches me grammar. The foundation of grammar must be strongly ingrained in us since Primary School. I'm afraid it hasn't. (or maybe I've been sleeping in class...) Sadly, it has worsened throughout the years. It feels like I live in two separate worlds. It's either "Everyone's English is so broken here" or "We are not short of good English speakers, so you better be paranoid of what you put out there." AND I NVR SEEM TO BELONG ANYWHERE.
IM SO SAD. NOT HAPPY. Now, feelings of low esteem are creeping in.... do I really have low esteem and all I've been doing is try to be awesome so I can cover it up? Boy, am I psychoanalyzing myself. >_____<
I'm going to get myself a primary school grammar drilling book. I am going to do primary school grammar exercises on my own accord because I can't stand that someone on the internet was right. He was damn right and it stung me like burning.
... Obviously still stinging. :(
I've never been so embarrassed and mortified. THE SAD THING IS THAT, no matter how much I try to improve my English and try to be better than an average Singaporean (mind you, our standards are way low. Can't be blamed, we only had it official for 45 years). At the end of the day, I am still below average than the average person residing in an English-speaking country. And that makes me frustrated, sad and angry. WHY, WHY, WHY.
That idiot also said "Maybe you're not from an English-speaking place". OH YES I AM, I AM. THE ONLY PLACE IN ASIA WHERE OUR FIRST LANG IS ENGLISH. The fact is- we haven't been speaking it for very long that's all. My mom can't speak a string of fluent English. My dad only picked it up at work. Most people in school speak Mandarin and those are not superior sources to be around, at all.
Thank you internet for expanding my vocabulary, but nothing from you teaches me grammar. The foundation of grammar must be strongly ingrained in us since Primary School. I'm afraid it hasn't. (or maybe I've been sleeping in class...) Sadly, it has worsened throughout the years. It feels like I live in two separate worlds. It's either "Everyone's English is so broken here" or "We are not short of good English speakers, so you better be paranoid of what you put out there." AND I NVR SEEM TO BELONG ANYWHERE.
IM SO SAD. NOT HAPPY. Now, feelings of low esteem are creeping in.... do I really have low esteem and all I've been doing is try to be awesome so I can cover it up? Boy, am I psychoanalyzing myself. >_____<
I'm going to get myself a primary school grammar drilling book. I am going to do primary school grammar exercises on my own accord because I can't stand that someone on the internet was right. He was damn right and it stung me like burning.
... Obviously still stinging. :(