ARRRGGHH I'M PEEVED.
I do not have very happy feelings at work.
Well, because the colleague I work with is incompetent, un-initiative, slow at times, ask even the simplest questions which demonstrates her reluctance to think.
"How to email?
"How to find her name?"
"How to google.... don't think can find...."
"This cannot.. that cannont.... This one can?"
"I don't know, I don't think so. Should not be...right?"
"Um, how?"
oh my god, you are great as a colleague, as a lunch buddy you are great. But your attitude towards work just numbs my brain.
and THIS. THIS.
"Um.. I think designers earn very little...."
Makes My Blood Boil. Silently. Painfully. Nonetheless. Burning.
Because of her incompetence and her hesitance to take initiative in the smallest things; For eg. Walking infront of me to the boss' table, expecting me to go in there first! Expecting me to open my mouth first! Daring to ask the boss difficult qns! She gives me *that* look and expects me to give her the answers to everything even when I have none. But at least I am "impatient" and "brash" enough to use my brain to think. ARGGH!! I feel like I'm back in fucking school again. ._____.
Okay, now let me get to the impatient, brash, neurotic part.
What happened was- one of the employees was chasing us to give him an answer as to whether he was allowed to resign in the last hour, I may have appeared all the 3 words combined above infront of my boss. (Fail.. I know) In which she said, QUOTE. "Why are you always so ganchiong? Why do you side the employees?" END QUOTE. *ganchiong is slang for doing things in a fast manner that exudes impatience.
FINE. NEXT TIME, WHEN I WALK IN THERE. I shut up and act completely mary-sue infront of her. Blank face, answering "Yes/No", nodding etc. Exactly how my colleague acts. Oh yes, yes. yes. I shall. I will.
Ok, I admit I have a tendency to go into a bubble of neurotic fit whenever I'm nervous and I want to get things done. I couldn't care less if you have a higher authority than me. I mean, labels and status don't bother me. I don't see why I should act so polite and obedient when I just want things to MAKE SENSE, CONCISE, and BE EFFICIENT, and why should I sit there for 15 mins to watch you type an email. I WANTED TO GO BACK, So I asked. Besides, my colleague was giving me that puppy-eyed look again. Which says : Please, Ella? Ask her? So I asked. And I got, in a slight agitated tone, "No, No. Sit down."
In which, F-I-N-A-L-L-Y after finished typing her email, she said : Ok, go back.
HUH, where in the world does this compute.
Gee. I need to calm down. I just hate that I can be annoying, agigity, fidgety when it comes to getting work done. I wish I could show more humility, I wish I could be less neurotic. I wish I wasn't so strong-headed and know how to keep opinions to myself. (infront of bosses especially) But I'm so nice. I'm nice to people. I am. I haven't even flashed a sarcastic comment at my colleague. I've been so supportive. I've been guiding her. But I don't want to do that anymore. She's the permanent staff, I'm a temp. Sigh.
epic rant was keysmashed in under 30 mins. win.
Well, because the colleague I work with is incompetent, un-initiative, slow at times, ask even the simplest questions which demonstrates her reluctance to think.
"How to email?
"How to find her name?"
"How to google.... don't think can find...."
"This cannot.. that cannont.... This one can?"
"I don't know, I don't think so. Should not be...right?"
"Um, how?"
oh my god, you are great as a colleague, as a lunch buddy you are great. But your attitude towards work just numbs my brain.
and THIS. THIS.
"Um.. I think designers earn very little...."
Makes My Blood Boil. Silently. Painfully. Nonetheless. Burning.
Because of her incompetence and her hesitance to take initiative in the smallest things; For eg. Walking infront of me to the boss' table, expecting me to go in there first! Expecting me to open my mouth first! Daring to ask the boss difficult qns! She gives me *that* look and expects me to give her the answers to everything even when I have none. But at least I am "impatient" and "brash" enough to use my brain to think. ARGGH!! I feel like I'm back in fucking school again. ._____.
Okay, now let me get to the impatient, brash, neurotic part.
What happened was- one of the employees was chasing us to give him an answer as to whether he was allowed to resign in the last hour, I may have appeared all the 3 words combined above infront of my boss. (Fail.. I know) In which she said, QUOTE. "Why are you always so ganchiong? Why do you side the employees?" END QUOTE. *ganchiong is slang for doing things in a fast manner that exudes impatience.
FINE. NEXT TIME, WHEN I WALK IN THERE. I shut up and act completely mary-sue infront of her. Blank face, answering "Yes/No", nodding etc. Exactly how my colleague acts. Oh yes, yes. yes. I shall. I will.
Ok, I admit I have a tendency to go into a bubble of neurotic fit whenever I'm nervous and I want to get things done. I couldn't care less if you have a higher authority than me. I mean, labels and status don't bother me. I don't see why I should act so polite and obedient when I just want things to MAKE SENSE, CONCISE, and BE EFFICIENT, and why should I sit there for 15 mins to watch you type an email. I WANTED TO GO BACK, So I asked. Besides, my colleague was giving me that puppy-eyed look again. Which says : Please, Ella? Ask her? So I asked. And I got, in a slight agitated tone, "No, No. Sit down."
In which, F-I-N-A-L-L-Y after finished typing her email, she said : Ok, go back.
HUH, where in the world does this compute.
Gee. I need to calm down. I just hate that I can be annoying, agigity, fidgety when it comes to getting work done. I wish I could show more humility, I wish I could be less neurotic. I wish I wasn't so strong-headed and know how to keep opinions to myself. (infront of bosses especially) But I'm so nice. I'm nice to people. I am. I haven't even flashed a sarcastic comment at my colleague. I've been so supportive. I've been guiding her. But I don't want to do that anymore. She's the permanent staff, I'm a temp. Sigh.
epic rant was keysmashed in under 30 mins. win.