frustrated photographer.
Hello world.
I just came out of my cave.
In which I spent 3 days intense video gaming away at my laptop.
zero internet, haven't logged on to msn or to livejournal or to deviantart for days.
i predict i will get bored of that game in....2 more days perhaps.
that's why i don't bother to spend $70 on a video game, cuz like with everything else my attention span is so limited.
I tried with rollercoaster tycoon, sims, age of empires, the movies, and I got tired of playing all of them within 4 days.
it's probably why I get burnt out playing games intensively for the first 3 days. like really round-the-clock playing until brain turn into juice kind. I really do worry if my laptop will die because of me.
i'm playing SIMS 3 by the way. The marketing campaign you see at the MRTs inform pirates like me to click on illegal downloading websites to get the game before the retail release. everything leaks out faster online than retail. Music, movies, games, books.
and sims 3 is really a freakin fantastic game, development-wise speaking.
i don't know how the software developers did it but gawd do I feel guilty of depriving them their well-deserved $70!
so if any of you sims fans out there who don't mind feeding the game developers out from your monthly allowance, please don't be a pirate like me. please buy the retail release. :D It is worth your every penny. *EA plz don't sue me.
I've been following this girl's blog.
she's like the other part of me which I don't exactly proudly and publicly express.
there are a lot of similarities between the stuff she listens and watches and mine as well.
except she won't hesitate to announce on her blog even if no one understands what she is talking about. even if no one cares.
i wish i could be like that.
i think, even if I try to be unique and different, I still fall under the category of "trying to appeal to other people's tastes and preferences."
i don't feel i'm taking the photographs that i want.
i feel like i'm taking the photographs that i think you would want to see.
you know what I mean?
i don't feel like i'm blogging the stuff i really want to blog.
i feel like i'm blogging the stuff i think you would want to see, and that you will understand and find value in that, thus finding acceptance in me. you know?
and now i feel like i don't dare to upload experimental photos on MY flickr.
cuz it has always had great, consistent-themed photos and I don't want other people to think any less of me. Even if I really really want to post.
See?
it is like... i'm struggling with trying to develop my own style vs the style that everyone will like. to be really unconventional or to be conventional unconventional?
shitty frustrated stupid feeling.
must have been a sad child last time, parents give no love. (HAHAHAH, you know that's not true)
but probably somewhere screwed up internally due to my parent's divorce. which I don't know what, but I bet when my dad sees this he's gonna want to comment something on it hahahahha.
maybe it's got nothing to do with my parents' divorce.
maybe it's all me and i'm just one giant planet of ego.
but i read somewhere that hard-core bullies are just people who are insecure about themselves.
so maybe that is just that.
insecure and emooo, yet with limitless skies above. so many possibilities, life is too short.
I just came out of my cave.
In which I spent 3 days intense video gaming away at my laptop.
zero internet, haven't logged on to msn or to livejournal or to deviantart for days.
i predict i will get bored of that game in....2 more days perhaps.
that's why i don't bother to spend $70 on a video game, cuz like with everything else my attention span is so limited.
I tried with rollercoaster tycoon, sims, age of empires, the movies, and I got tired of playing all of them within 4 days.
it's probably why I get burnt out playing games intensively for the first 3 days. like really round-the-clock playing until brain turn into juice kind. I really do worry if my laptop will die because of me.
i'm playing SIMS 3 by the way. The marketing campaign you see at the MRTs inform pirates like me to click on illegal downloading websites to get the game before the retail release. everything leaks out faster online than retail. Music, movies, games, books.
and sims 3 is really a freakin fantastic game, development-wise speaking.
i don't know how the software developers did it but gawd do I feel guilty of depriving them their well-deserved $70!
so if any of you sims fans out there who don't mind feeding the game developers out from your monthly allowance, please don't be a pirate like me. please buy the retail release. :D It is worth your every penny. *EA plz don't sue me.
I've been following this girl's blog.
she's like the other part of me which I don't exactly proudly and publicly express.
there are a lot of similarities between the stuff she listens and watches and mine as well.
except she won't hesitate to announce on her blog even if no one understands what she is talking about. even if no one cares.
i wish i could be like that.
i think, even if I try to be unique and different, I still fall under the category of "trying to appeal to other people's tastes and preferences."
i don't feel i'm taking the photographs that i want.
i feel like i'm taking the photographs that i think you would want to see.
you know what I mean?
i don't feel like i'm blogging the stuff i really want to blog.
i feel like i'm blogging the stuff i think you would want to see, and that you will understand and find value in that, thus finding acceptance in me. you know?
and now i feel like i don't dare to upload experimental photos on MY flickr.
cuz it has always had great, consistent-themed photos and I don't want other people to think any less of me. Even if I really really want to post.
See?
it is like... i'm struggling with trying to develop my own style vs the style that everyone will like. to be really unconventional or to be conventional unconventional?
shitty frustrated stupid feeling.
must have been a sad child last time, parents give no love. (HAHAHAH, you know that's not true)
but probably somewhere screwed up internally due to my parent's divorce. which I don't know what, but I bet when my dad sees this he's gonna want to comment something on it hahahahha.
maybe it's got nothing to do with my parents' divorce.
maybe it's all me and i'm just one giant planet of ego.
but i read somewhere that hard-core bullies are just people who are insecure about themselves.
so maybe that is just that.
insecure and emooo, yet with limitless skies above. so many possibilities, life is too short.