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I have two defined creases on my stomach, one in the center of my ribcage, one directly below it. They are from slouching. The fact that I'm aware of them only reiterates my head's sinking.
Also, for the first time since I was a kid, I have visible tanlines. I'm not sure yet if this is a sign of victory or defeat.
I'm avoiding everything I have to do before alex and I leave for new york tomorrow, I havn't packed anything at all, except my portfolio.
I won't say I'm not scared for tomorrow, because I am. Something will go wrong. We will get lost, miss our appointments with admissions councelors, lose our concert tickets, be assaulted by taxi drivers, run out of money, and be otherwise raped, pillaged, and murdered.
It's going to be fun.
I will take lots of pictures.
This is the first time my parents have trusted me to go away without supervision. And probably the last.
I am going to go pack, or try to. I will forget my toothbrush and ATM card, inevitably.
Also, for the first time since I was a kid, I have visible tanlines. I'm not sure yet if this is a sign of victory or defeat.
I'm avoiding everything I have to do before alex and I leave for new york tomorrow, I havn't packed anything at all, except my portfolio.
I won't say I'm not scared for tomorrow, because I am. Something will go wrong. We will get lost, miss our appointments with admissions councelors, lose our concert tickets, be assaulted by taxi drivers, run out of money, and be otherwise raped, pillaged, and murdered.
It's going to be fun.
I will take lots of pictures.
This is the first time my parents have trusted me to go away without supervision. And probably the last.
I am going to go pack, or try to. I will forget my toothbrush and ATM card, inevitably.