2011
Ahaha.. Oh livejournal. What a TIME to have stopped writing here... I stop updating and what happens? I become a completely new person, and I have no records of the turning points. God damnit that is SO sad :(( I really wish I didn't stop. I wish I could go back and know what I was thinking when things happened... That's why I wrote here to begin with! But the quick easy route of facebook statuses provided too much comfort... Damn. Goddamn I wish I LJ'ed more...
Things are so, so, so different from the last legitimate update. I cut some bastard out of my life for good and tried to sue him since he hasn't bothered to try to pay me back for things as promised (Alas, the papers weren't served properly)
Seriously, right after the "I don't like how things are" update...
One week later, I had the opportunity to get away for a few days and I took it.
And there isn't a single thing I could have done better. Just a week or so from that post, and I met an incredible man. The kind of wonderful that makes my eyes tear up with happiness whenever I think about him. He picked me up from where I was and helped me with so, so, so much. At first he was just this womanizer-looking, entertaining to talk to Korean guy with sunglasses. I wanted to get away from the whole crap dating life, so I refused thoughts of something more with him, even-- no, especially-- when he took an opportunity to kiss me the weekend after I met him. Comes off as a "skanky man trying to get some" move, but I wasn't exactly turned off by the sudden advance either.. He lived in Nor-Cal and happened to be in So-Cal that weekend, and I figured no harm in hanging out with a new friend. No point in thinking anything more about him, right?
The entirety of 2010 has been missed by LJ, save for a few "I'm trying to move out" sales posts. I'm kicking myself for not logging any of it in depth..
February 2011: I now live in a one bedroom apartment with that man, two exits past where I had attended Yaoicon right before that last post. I work full-time right off that intersection where I accidentally directed someone onto the last onramp to go across the bay bridge after getting Taco Bell right before the Bishi Auction. I never thought I'd see these places again. I never thought I could.. no, WOULD be so, so, so consistently happy.
Maybe I'll go into more detail later. Memory Recaps, perhaps. Just so I have them. My only regret is not finding this happiness sooner.
Things are so, so, so different from the last legitimate update. I cut some bastard out of my life for good and tried to sue him since he hasn't bothered to try to pay me back for things as promised (Alas, the papers weren't served properly)
Seriously, right after the "I don't like how things are" update...
One week later, I had the opportunity to get away for a few days and I took it.
And there isn't a single thing I could have done better. Just a week or so from that post, and I met an incredible man. The kind of wonderful that makes my eyes tear up with happiness whenever I think about him. He picked me up from where I was and helped me with so, so, so much. At first he was just this womanizer-looking, entertaining to talk to Korean guy with sunglasses. I wanted to get away from the whole crap dating life, so I refused thoughts of something more with him, even-- no, especially-- when he took an opportunity to kiss me the weekend after I met him. Comes off as a "skanky man trying to get some" move, but I wasn't exactly turned off by the sudden advance either.. He lived in Nor-Cal and happened to be in So-Cal that weekend, and I figured no harm in hanging out with a new friend. No point in thinking anything more about him, right?
The entirety of 2010 has been missed by LJ, save for a few "I'm trying to move out" sales posts. I'm kicking myself for not logging any of it in depth..
February 2011: I now live in a one bedroom apartment with that man, two exits past where I had attended Yaoicon right before that last post. I work full-time right off that intersection where I accidentally directed someone onto the last onramp to go across the bay bridge after getting Taco Bell right before the Bishi Auction. I never thought I'd see these places again. I never thought I could.. no, WOULD be so, so, so consistently happy.
Maybe I'll go into more detail later. Memory Recaps, perhaps. Just so I have them. My only regret is not finding this happiness sooner.