Fuck this all
School has been really dumb the past three days because of the gun scare. Some chick threatened to kill the softball team or something like that. I decided I felt 'unsafe' so i left school and had lunch with my mom.
This weekend...
Work was tiring and being there at 8 in the morning wasn't that fun...although we got to throw boxes of trash outta the window and into a truck below. We got out 3 hour early...whatever... I walked with Jason, Alison, and Ryan after work. Jason tends to act really distant after work when Alison works that day. I dont understand their relationship. When they get all googly and culddley it makes me wanna barf my guts. I decided I didnt want to be a third wheel so I left to wait for my mom to pick me up. Went tot sleep for about an 2 hours when I got home. Watched TV while I got ready for prom and Douglas Cafe. When we picked Analeece up our mothers were going nuts with the cameras. The food at Douglas was good and it was even better because it was free. God I thought prom would be pretty good fun as the night went on... but u know what? It just kept getting worse and worse...and worse. So in the begining it was ok cause we just got back from eating at my uncles resturant and i looked pretty amazing mind you. But man I just got more and more emotionaly drained until I couldn't take it anymore. The music was crap and shit just kept playing over and over it made me want to hurl, just like all the couples around me. I did have a hot date analeece looked pretty cute in her dress. Other than that it was a total bust. All my friends were having a good time it seems but thats all that matters. I'm just being extreamly bitter again but yea, I am so fucking tired of being the third wheel. I want some guy to sweep me off my feet but, seeing how that doesnt seem like its gonna happen anytime soon yea I should stop. They all seemed concerned but I don't need their sympathy cause u know its bullshit just to make them seem like good people. Mona wanted me to go to sandy beach with them afterwards and decided against it cause I woulda ended up being on a log or strolling the beach alone. I don't fit in with her new crowd. Maybe I'm too straight edge about things. I fucking hate everything right now and I'm angry at everyone. I hate people who are fake and fakers should burn. I dont need your pity I just want to use you so I can better myself in life because in the end its all about me and how I survive. I should probably try to find new friends some that don't cause me any emotional destress cause I've been having alot of that lately... especially cause of all the shit thats been going down on my side. I'm sure that you've had enough so I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep. Laterz.
This weekend...
Work was tiring and being there at 8 in the morning wasn't that fun...although we got to throw boxes of trash outta the window and into a truck below. We got out 3 hour early...whatever... I walked with Jason, Alison, and Ryan after work. Jason tends to act really distant after work when Alison works that day. I dont understand their relationship. When they get all googly and culddley it makes me wanna barf my guts. I decided I didnt want to be a third wheel so I left to wait for my mom to pick me up. Went tot sleep for about an 2 hours when I got home. Watched TV while I got ready for prom and Douglas Cafe. When we picked Analeece up our mothers were going nuts with the cameras. The food at Douglas was good and it was even better because it was free. God I thought prom would be pretty good fun as the night went on... but u know what? It just kept getting worse and worse...and worse. So in the begining it was ok cause we just got back from eating at my uncles resturant and i looked pretty amazing mind you. But man I just got more and more emotionaly drained until I couldn't take it anymore. The music was crap and shit just kept playing over and over it made me want to hurl, just like all the couples around me. I did have a hot date analeece looked pretty cute in her dress. Other than that it was a total bust. All my friends were having a good time it seems but thats all that matters. I'm just being extreamly bitter again but yea, I am so fucking tired of being the third wheel. I want some guy to sweep me off my feet but, seeing how that doesnt seem like its gonna happen anytime soon yea I should stop. They all seemed concerned but I don't need their sympathy cause u know its bullshit just to make them seem like good people. Mona wanted me to go to sandy beach with them afterwards and decided against it cause I woulda ended up being on a log or strolling the beach alone. I don't fit in with her new crowd. Maybe I'm too straight edge about things. I fucking hate everything right now and I'm angry at everyone. I hate people who are fake and fakers should burn. I dont need your pity I just want to use you so I can better myself in life because in the end its all about me and how I survive. I should probably try to find new friends some that don't cause me any emotional destress cause I've been having alot of that lately... especially cause of all the shit thats been going down on my side. I'm sure that you've had enough so I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep. Laterz.