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OK, don't die of shock everyone. Yes, I'm actually posting! I thought I'd let you all know that I'm still alive. Although probably all of you read James's LJ, and I'm sure he at least occasionally includes the fact that I'm still alive in his posts.
I think I am going to keep this short because I don't even know what to say. A lot happens in 6 weeks. I think that's how long it's been since I last posted...
I'm reading a book called Boundaries by a couple of Christian psychologists. I got it years ago, but never got to finish. My brother took it to read and it's been hiding at my parent's house ever since. It's very good. It explains a lot to me about so many of the problems in my adult life. It explains why I'm a people-pleaser. It explains a lot of my relational issues. I'm reflecting on a lot of things that happened while I was younger and seeing them in a different light. I fear that setting limits will make those that I care about go away. I allow myself to be manipulated and then resent it, feeling that someone else "made me do" something. The end result is that I feel like I have no control over my life. It feels good to realize that is not true. I do have control.
The Serenity Prayer would be like the perfect mantra for the book ("God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.")
Anyways, I'd better go now. I'm using someone's computer without their permission. Heee. I love you Twistpretty! Really!
I think I am going to keep this short because I don't even know what to say. A lot happens in 6 weeks. I think that's how long it's been since I last posted...
I'm reading a book called Boundaries by a couple of Christian psychologists. I got it years ago, but never got to finish. My brother took it to read and it's been hiding at my parent's house ever since. It's very good. It explains a lot to me about so many of the problems in my adult life. It explains why I'm a people-pleaser. It explains a lot of my relational issues. I'm reflecting on a lot of things that happened while I was younger and seeing them in a different light. I fear that setting limits will make those that I care about go away. I allow myself to be manipulated and then resent it, feeling that someone else "made me do" something. The end result is that I feel like I have no control over my life. It feels good to realize that is not true. I do have control.
The Serenity Prayer would be like the perfect mantra for the book ("God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.")
Anyways, I'd better go now. I'm using someone's computer without their permission. Heee. I love you Twistpretty! Really!