If I Told You Now
Click to viewIf I told you now
That I didn’t have the answers,
That I didn’t know the reasons,
That I didn’t hold the key -
If I told you now
That I couldn’t say for certain
That I wouldn’t break my promise,
Could you bear to look at me?
If I told you now
That in spite of my persistence
And my confident demeanor
I am more and more in doubt;
If I told you now,
Would you smile with understanding?
Would you burn with disappointment?
Would you turn and turn me out?
If I told you now,
I suspect you still might say
We’ve gone too far to change,
Or push away the tide.
Would you close us down,
Or would I get extra points because I tried?
If I tried.
If I told you now,
And I’m not about to tell you,
But in case I chose to mention
Things I know you won’t allow,
Would it hurt less later
If I told you now?
If I told you now
That we’re never really safe
From all the fires we set
Or debts we had to pay,
Would you hold me now
So at least, for this, for here,
I know you’d stay?
If you’d stay…
If I told you now,
It would be for your protection,
‘Cause I’m sure I’ll disappoint you,
Though I can’t imagine how -
Does it make me better
If I told you now?
Would you make me better
If I told you now?