house sitting blues
i wish i could stop having nightmares. i dont really feel like sleeping alone tonight but i get so tired when people show up and keep me company. last night amirtha came over and we just sat around and talked about music and movies. i was glad she came because it gave me an excuse to give someone else the bed and we both got to get up at 5am to get breakfast before i had to go to work- and not to mention she is going to be leaving for two months, so it's nice to get to enjoy her company.
but i just cant stop dreaming of terrible things and i'd like to know why. maybe i am the anti-christ.
house sitting is nice because i get to drink as much beer as id like and its all free and i can go outside and smoke, or take a shower, watch a movie, swim (not likely), take a nap- but it all seems like New Mexico.
I have actually thought about that person and i want to cry because he seemed so strong even though i'd only met him once. when i hear a certain song it makes me think of him and i get very sad. it doesnt quite make sense to me but i do feel a certain feeling of loss.
i might go to see a 10'o'clock showing of Black Book because i dont know what to do with myself.
but i just cant stop dreaming of terrible things and i'd like to know why. maybe i am the anti-christ.
house sitting is nice because i get to drink as much beer as id like and its all free and i can go outside and smoke, or take a shower, watch a movie, swim (not likely), take a nap- but it all seems like New Mexico.
I have actually thought about that person and i want to cry because he seemed so strong even though i'd only met him once. when i hear a certain song it makes me think of him and i get very sad. it doesnt quite make sense to me but i do feel a certain feeling of loss.
i might go to see a 10'o'clock showing of Black Book because i dont know what to do with myself.