Constant self-improvement hurts
I'm having an interesting conversation on AIM with Marc, of all people, about my insecurity. I wanted to jot down some things that I want to remember.
i just think its time to get over the 13 year old insecurity. embrace who u are and understand ur shortcomings and love em or hate em or change em.. insecurity is such a waste of time. either change it or be comfy with it. Marc @ 1:05
Makes me want to make an Excel spreadsheet, something along the lines of:
What I can change What I can't change Laugh more Listen better Value other things over going out at night & getting smashed Don't be scared to approach people Have awkward moments Talk slower Don't interrupt people Am not good at everything Not always at center of attention Can't be friends with everyone Reach out to people who are genuinely nice and interesting Am totally geeky
Even spending 5 minutes on this, as I did just now, has been a really good exercise because it totally puts things in perspective. I'm still kind of feeling my way through this journey towards "feeling comfortable in my own skin," but through this conversation I've definitely taken a few steps forward. I'm glad I decided to open up tonight.
Elly @ 1:13
were you ever awkward and insecurE?
duh? Marc @ 1:13
what do u think eep was 1:13
so what moved you on? Elly @ 1:13
i'm curious. 1:13
hmmmm i think what it was Marc @ 1:14
a few diff things 1:14
i think getting a teenage heart broken type deal is totally good 1:14
cuz it puts like the whole relationship thing or.... not being too afraid to try thing 1:14
into perspective 1:14
and then having an event where u dont do something 1:14
and regret it 1:14
kinda fires away all the times u'll ever be to scared to do smething 1:14
knowing you'll regret it 1:14
and then other lil events where i kinda looked at 1:15
and ssaid nope....not again 1:15
or... hey why the fuck not 1:15
alot of it has to do with i enjoy talkin to people and bsing and all that... and really enjoy the study of humans and relationships and interactions 1:15
and by sitting and looking at others 1:15
i kinda realized who i am and what i enjoy and am bad at etc 1:15
and that combined with thinking and like figuring out who id rather be.. the sit in the corner guy... or the regret my decision guy.. etc 1:15
or the.. just try for it and not worry and be ok with failure or success etc etc 1:16
i dunno its just how i looked at shit 1:16
i just think its time to get over the 13 year old insecurity. embrace who u are and understand ur shortcomings and love em or hate em or change em.. insecurity is such a waste of time. either change it or be comfy with it. Marc @ 1:05
Makes me want to make an Excel spreadsheet, something along the lines of:
What I can change What I can't change Laugh more Listen better Value other things over going out at night & getting smashed Don't be scared to approach people Have awkward moments Talk slower Don't interrupt people Am not good at everything Not always at center of attention Can't be friends with everyone Reach out to people who are genuinely nice and interesting Am totally geeky
Even spending 5 minutes on this, as I did just now, has been a really good exercise because it totally puts things in perspective. I'm still kind of feeling my way through this journey towards "feeling comfortable in my own skin," but through this conversation I've definitely taken a few steps forward. I'm glad I decided to open up tonight.
Elly @ 1:13
were you ever awkward and insecurE?
duh? Marc @ 1:13
what do u think eep was 1:13
so what moved you on? Elly @ 1:13
i'm curious. 1:13
hmmmm i think what it was Marc @ 1:14
a few diff things 1:14
i think getting a teenage heart broken type deal is totally good 1:14
cuz it puts like the whole relationship thing or.... not being too afraid to try thing 1:14
into perspective 1:14
and then having an event where u dont do something 1:14
and regret it 1:14
kinda fires away all the times u'll ever be to scared to do smething 1:14
knowing you'll regret it 1:14
and then other lil events where i kinda looked at 1:15
and ssaid nope....not again 1:15
or... hey why the fuck not 1:15
alot of it has to do with i enjoy talkin to people and bsing and all that... and really enjoy the study of humans and relationships and interactions 1:15
and by sitting and looking at others 1:15
i kinda realized who i am and what i enjoy and am bad at etc 1:15
and that combined with thinking and like figuring out who id rather be.. the sit in the corner guy... or the regret my decision guy.. etc 1:15
or the.. just try for it and not worry and be ok with failure or success etc etc 1:16
i dunno its just how i looked at shit 1:16