Background story and What I plan on doing
In November of 2011 I joined a local group called FAD. It was a group that supported Female Domination in relationships. Yes I know it sounds odd, but it has been a part of who I am since i can remember. My husband is into CBT of a sorts and I thought that instead of just reading about it that maybe acting some of it out would helps. That and we needed some more spice to the sex life. I found the group to be amazing. We have learned so much about many alternative events. Pony Play was very interesting. I got to build my toy group and do many fun and daring things. Like wrestling naked in baby oil in someones back yard or swimming with no clothes on with a bunch of other woman. It was very exciting and erotic. I meet new people over the months and learned more about who i was. I found out that I am a sadist. I love watching others in pain. It was almost a spiritual connection than an erotic one. I loved to watch the look of pain wash over someones face and then see that replaced with a look of utter calm and serenity. I loved doing the needle play especially. The feeling of it popping out of the skin and watching the blood pour out of the small holes. I could feel the energy in the room as the people reached a level of excitement and the tang of sweat was in the air. The world almost hummed in a way that made me want to become more attuned with my spiritual belief system. I was already a self practicing pagan, but I had reached a point in my path that I wanted something more formal. More structured with a clear path to follow. I had reach a road block. I knew I was very attuned to my body and energy, but what to do next. I was having a hard time learning things that were beyond my flesh. That is why 2 weeks ago I joined OBOD. They want you to journal your experiences and keep notes on what you learn as you follow their books and lessons. At this point I am working on the introductory lesson and I will post my thoughts soon. Hope that anyone who reads this will get to see through my typos and bad grammar to read the great story that I am sure is about to unfold.