Release

[ldylavender]

I have been away for a few months and have recently returned. It was one of the best experiences of my life. I needed to be released from my own personal prisons and this experience has helped me immensely. It was a shame that I had to wait so many years to do so, but sometimes that is how life operates, what god puts in our paths. I learned so much more about myself, too.....my strengths, my weaknesses, my gracefulness and I found my soul Yup, I sure did. God works in mysterious ways, he sure does and I trust in his goals and love for me. Although I have always felt I have been empathetic and compassionate, I learned so much more.......

What did I learn? To say no without any explanation having to be given, to support myself more than I have, to rescue less, to have less. Yes, I still have my material possessions, but I am downsizing completely. Totally de-cluttering my life in more ways than one....physically and emotionally, concentrating on so much more - myself, my jewelry work, glasswork, crafts and being me. I am still the strong person I have always been, the matter of fact, no bullshit person, but with a bit more attitude and change. I will also not be returning to the SCA....too much drama. I missed some of my "friends", but didn't miss the activity....there is so much more to life than that.

And I am going to find more of it.