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I've had a lot of shit on my mind lately. And I've had a lot going on in my life. Many things to worry about most teenagers don't need to at this age. I've heard it a lot.. "teenagers just should have fun".. yeah, well, don't they remember being a teenager? How hard it can get sometimes? And I have to say this, it's my choice how to deal with my problems. I can tell who ever I want... or just not tell a soul. And when I have someone think its "sad" that I dont tell them and have to keep it to myself, it doesn't make me feel very good about myself. I will handle my problems however the hell I want.
I posted in a previous entry before school started how I didnt want any drama this year. I'm trying now to clear it up. At least to be decent. I will say the first week and a half of school was fucking stupid. I was a very angry person, for a good reason too. I saw something in someone I didn't think was there. But I have been talking to them now.
I had a conversation today that was fucking stupid. It got me no where and started with a rumor. Why don't people just tell me how it is in the first place? Instead of not wanting to start something and never say anything at all. Cause then it just builds up, and when you finally do tell me, it hurts more than it would in the first place.
Im sick and tired of being blamed for every fucking thing that goes wrong. I will say it, yeah, I've done some stupid things and I take responsibility for it. But it's not all my fault. How about you look at yourself and see what you have done to make the situation worse. People need to stop being the fucking victim. Not everything revolves around you.
God, I am so angry at the moment. I've had my personal life attacked and I've been jugded. I tried to handle it calmly, but some pretty mean things were said. Things I found offensive.
People just need to start thinking straight and not with their head up their ass. Grow the fuck up.
I know this journal entry was just bitching, but I need to get it off my chest. And if you don't like what I write in my journal... then don't fucking read it! It's my journal, and I'll write whatever I want.
And I'm not going to be surprised if I get some nasty comment bitching me out and playing the victim again.