Long post. About life. And the other side of that coin.

[ldybastet]

Hi guys! I know I haven't been around much, but life is weird and hectic and it's often easier to scroll through Tumblr or play games on FB than to post my thoughts here. But. Sometimes something happens that is changing your life so fundamentally that you just have to write down your thoughts and feelings and what is actually going on, so you don'

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[misumaru]

Oh, sweetheart! *hugs* I hope going to the funeral gives you the closure you need.

Also, that parasol thing was freaky. O_O I don't think it was a coincidence...

[ldybastet]

*hugs back* Thanks! I know at least it will give me a whole new platform to work towards a healed person! I do feel really bad for his gf, F though... She always liked me lots even before I left him, and she was never the reason I broke off all contact in the end. (I was actually kind of glad she kept him busy.)

IKR!!! o.o A last goodbye...

[pet_akira]

Wow Hun *Hugs* I Know How Ya Feel Since I've Been Down That Road Myself On Alotta It With My Ex Feance. I Sometimes Wish Bad To Happen To Him Also After Stuff I Was Put Through With Him But It Wouldn't Be Right If I Did For Many Reasons. But It's Good You Got Away From Him When Did And It's Also Good To Hear That You Now Don't Have To Be Afraid To Running Into Him Anywhere Anymore And Can Now Feel Safer. It Is Nice Of You Actually To Be Going To His Funeral Services Though.

The Thing About The Parasol Sounds Freaky To Have Happen Like That lol. *Sends Much Hugs & Love Your Way* Hope All Goes Well For Ya Now For Sure. You Don't Need To Have Bad Things Like That Happen To Ya Ever Again For Sure. You're Too Sweet A Girl For That Type Stuff <3

[ldybastet]

Thanks honey! Your kind words are really appreciated. :) Safer is good, right? Easier to put things behind me.

[random_x13]

OMG how crazy! It could have been a sign, or not. What matters now is that you don't have to live with that fear in the back of your mind anymore!
I wish you the best in finding your closure and your continuing path of healing!

[ldybastet]

Freaky thing is that the cast iron base of the parasol moved on its own later, a whole foot! Thank you, honey! :)

[tinamuggi]

*hugs tightly* My brain has been in a general meltdown for a long while, so I don't have many words that would be truly appropriate/coherent :(

You're in my thoughts though, and my heart, and I'm hoping the universe will send you the positive, strong and healing energy you need.

Love and hugs

[ldybastet]

*hugs back* Thank you honey!!! <3 <3 I hope you get some of that too, because I think you need it as well as I do! We both deserve peace and joy and good time! *snuggle*

[puss_nd_boots]

Holy hell. I can't imagine the emotions you must be going through right now - but I do hope that going to the funeral is a big step in your healing process. You can let go of the fear that you had in the back of your head for so long and finally take a deep breath. You deserve to finally move past all that pain right now. ((HUGS)) And the umbrella thing is freaky as all hell. O_O

[ldybastet]

It's been a whole basket full of mixed emotions, I have to admit. WHat saddens me most is that I feel much more relief than actual sadness. But, at least the last few days, some good memories have started to pop up, so I think that is good. :) He wasn't only horrible; if he'd been, I wouldn't have stayed for so long.

*huuuugs* Thank you! <3