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i'm sorry all i have been writing about lately is nic. i just can't help it he's on my mind quite a bit. hopefully this will be the last entry regarding him, but i serioulsy doubt it.
he didn't call me yesterday like he promised to. not that big of a surprise seeing as how he was supposedly with lauren last night. i still let it affect me. i texted him at 5 in the morning and said happy birthday cuase it's his birthday today and then this morning at like 11 i called him, expecting to get a message machine. but he picked up and so i said happy birthday and that i hoped he had a good day and that was the extent of the conversation. right. well riri came over and rescued me and i got out everything that i needed to, haha the notebook, and i just feel better now. if he wants to talk to me he can call me or whatever, ya know? i'm not going to make an effort on my part beucase i just need to get over him. but i don't want to just end the relationship. we will see how things work out, it will be fine, i have the yayas. i feel bad though beucase it's his birthday and i'm not sure if i should have gotten him soemthing or not. but i called him so if he wants to talk he can call me when he gets back from drums tonight.
on a suckier note, hah, we had to put peanut to sleep today beucase he was apparently really really sick. he was the cutest fattest cat in the world and i'm already kind of lonely without him. this sucks.
i need to get out of the house. so so bad. thank god for the yayas.
he didn't call me yesterday like he promised to. not that big of a surprise seeing as how he was supposedly with lauren last night. i still let it affect me. i texted him at 5 in the morning and said happy birthday cuase it's his birthday today and then this morning at like 11 i called him, expecting to get a message machine. but he picked up and so i said happy birthday and that i hoped he had a good day and that was the extent of the conversation. right. well riri came over and rescued me and i got out everything that i needed to, haha the notebook, and i just feel better now. if he wants to talk to me he can call me or whatever, ya know? i'm not going to make an effort on my part beucase i just need to get over him. but i don't want to just end the relationship. we will see how things work out, it will be fine, i have the yayas. i feel bad though beucase it's his birthday and i'm not sure if i should have gotten him soemthing or not. but i called him so if he wants to talk he can call me when he gets back from drums tonight.
on a suckier note, hah, we had to put peanut to sleep today beucase he was apparently really really sick. he was the cutest fattest cat in the world and i'm already kind of lonely without him. this sucks.
i need to get out of the house. so so bad. thank god for the yayas.