Repentance Process
Well, after a purposeful walk into the ways of the world, I have decided to get myself back on track. Hurrah.
But man...I just can't bring myself to get this started. This will be my third disciplinary council. The third or fourth time I've been disfellowshipped.
The thought of going through this again is exhausting. I've been going to church for a couple months. I have avoided immorality for almost a year. But I can feel that resolve starting to weaken, so I know that means I need to get the repentance process started. But again...I don't know if I have the energy to do it again. I get worn out just thinking about it.
And I know this is a consequence of my own actions, and I'll just have to deal with it, but if I get held to the year that it generally ends up being after you speak with the bishop for the first time, that is going to be a long wait. And a pain for moving forward with my life in terms of marriage and such. But, like I said, that was a known consequence at the time I actively chose to try the ways of the world. I'll just have to deal. And the longer I wait, the more I'm prolonging that year.
I just...ugh. I don't want to do this again.
But man...I just can't bring myself to get this started. This will be my third disciplinary council. The third or fourth time I've been disfellowshipped.
The thought of going through this again is exhausting. I've been going to church for a couple months. I have avoided immorality for almost a year. But I can feel that resolve starting to weaken, so I know that means I need to get the repentance process started. But again...I don't know if I have the energy to do it again. I get worn out just thinking about it.
And I know this is a consequence of my own actions, and I'll just have to deal with it, but if I get held to the year that it generally ends up being after you speak with the bishop for the first time, that is going to be a long wait. And a pain for moving forward with my life in terms of marriage and such. But, like I said, that was a known consequence at the time I actively chose to try the ways of the world. I'll just have to deal. And the longer I wait, the more I'm prolonging that year.
I just...ugh. I don't want to do this again.