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              This week has been pretty...horrible.  There's just so much going on, it's overwhelming. I don't feel like i have anyone i can really talk to at  the moment, without some kind of reservation while doing it,  and that's one of the most frustrating things in the world. There's  just crap happening in soccer. I love playing to death, and i'm getting better,  a lot better, and when i play i'm happy and excited. But being on J/V and Freshman is like paying the  toll for it.  Some of the Freshman players...seem to think that i act  lik e i'm better  than them because i play on both teams...and i don't. If anyone knows me, they pretty much know i never act like that..and i'm about as modest as it comes to that kind of thing. Then they make comments about it,  like say i always act that way, or they just have to point out the fact that i'm on two teams, to  kind of put up like a wall between me and them. And it grinds on you, after a while, and when i  finally can't stand it and i say something they're shocked..because they  load all of this stuff on me and  don't expect me to not say anything after taking it forever. I don't know who wouldn't eventually get defensive if they were put in that kind of position..but it's just getting hard to deal with.
                 Game tomorrow..hope i just play hard and put my frustration into the game..because right now i think that's the best way to go.