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A little History:
Chris and I were together for 2 years and 1 1/2 of it was LD. WE lived together for 6 monthes. Things went a little wrong and I needed to move back to Iowa so we both could get our heads above water. WE broke up 3 monthes later. That was in April. And since it happened I tried and tried and tried to work things out with him, but he just told me didnt want a relationship anymore. (I even posted here about it and everyone told me it was obviously he was trying to in the nicest of ways say he didnt want to be with me ever again). So I put one last ditch effort about 1 1/2 monthes ago I wrote him a 4 page letter telling him how i feel, and how much i lvoed him, and all the things i wanted to fix in our relationship to make things better, and if he needed to get his life together I'd wait for him to get it together if he really wanted to be together, he didnt ever say anything abou tit, so I sort of gave up even thoguh i didnt want to, so i made an attempt to move on and started dating someone else to try and get over him even thoguh that wasnt the best of ideas, 4 day ago Chris IMed me and said he read my letter because hed been thinking of me lately and missing me, and of course now he wants to try to work things out with me. This is like a blow to me, WHY after all this time? Why now? SO i broke up with the boy i had been dating for a couple weeks, so get my shit together, because its not fair to him for me to try and deal with this and be with him at the same time, I really really love chris, and want to work things out now, but its been so long I dont know if things could be the same. I'm just so confused.
Chris and I were together for 2 years and 1 1/2 of it was LD. WE lived together for 6 monthes. Things went a little wrong and I needed to move back to Iowa so we both could get our heads above water. WE broke up 3 monthes later. That was in April. And since it happened I tried and tried and tried to work things out with him, but he just told me didnt want a relationship anymore. (I even posted here about it and everyone told me it was obviously he was trying to in the nicest of ways say he didnt want to be with me ever again). So I put one last ditch effort about 1 1/2 monthes ago I wrote him a 4 page letter telling him how i feel, and how much i lvoed him, and all the things i wanted to fix in our relationship to make things better, and if he needed to get his life together I'd wait for him to get it together if he really wanted to be together, he didnt ever say anything abou tit, so I sort of gave up even thoguh i didnt want to, so i made an attempt to move on and started dating someone else to try and get over him even thoguh that wasnt the best of ideas, 4 day ago Chris IMed me and said he read my letter because hed been thinking of me lately and missing me, and of course now he wants to try to work things out with me. This is like a blow to me, WHY after all this time? Why now? SO i broke up with the boy i had been dating for a couple weeks, so get my shit together, because its not fair to him for me to try and deal with this and be with him at the same time, I really really love chris, and want to work things out now, but its been so long I dont know if things could be the same. I'm just so confused.