Goals, not resolutions
Welcome to my first real post in... probably about a month. I've posted random snipits and for a while I was doing my Christmas songs (sorry those fizzled out.) Tonight starts off a brand new year. It doesn't feel like it and I don't know how to remedy that.
While 2010 wasn't the worst year of my life (Nov. '05-Oct. '06 takes the cake on that one), it was pretty awful. I lost my job and wound up at a crummy new job. I was more stressed out than I had been in a while. And to top it off, both my grandma and Aaron's grandma are really sick. Sure, I had my share of okay things too (actually getting a job and passing my summer course), but not nearly enough to even out the negative.
So, in honor of a new year, I am going to make a promise and all of you are my witnesses. I am going to have a good year. I will not make resolutions because I never keep them and it's just a waste of time. So I'm going to make promises and come up with a list of good things I want to accomplish in 2011.
1. I will finally, after 4 years, leave Richmond and live with my husband. Come April, I will put in my letter of resignation and begin my job search in Lynchburg. Honestly, at this point, I am more than happy to go work retail until something else comes along. I think this is a good thing. I'm tired of being by myself and alone in Richmond. This does mean I will probably be lessening my on-line time, but who knows. With Aaron's work schedule at the Tobacco shop and his playing Pool on Monday nights, I'll have plenty of time to be on-line.
2. I will actually spend time with my friends. Seeing as how I'm in Richmond 80% of the year, I don't see my friends too much. And I rarely ever speak to the ones who don't live in VA (Heather's probably the only exception). This year, I will make more time for my friends and stay in touch with other ones like Lou.
3. Get rid of some stuff. I have two piles of clothes that I do not wear any longer and I have numerous books I will not read again. I need to go through and get rid of them. Either sell them to Given's books or file them on Amazon. It'll clear up space and when I do move, it'll be less stuff I need to take with me.
4. Stop stressing about everything. I get so worked up over the littlest things and I need to stop. I need to accept that I can't do everything, and some people are impossible to please.
5. Be happy. I spent too much of this year upset, stressed or sad. I need to take time for myself and be happy. Winter is always my worst part of the year, especially since I'm alone so much. I need to look toward Spring.
I don't have anything overly difficult and all of these things are going to make me a better person. Granted, my year isn't going to start off terrific, Aaron's Grandma is going/gone downhill fast and she won't be with us much longer.
The Hospice Nurse she has that comes in 3times a week made it out like she wouldn't survive the weekend. I think we've all accepted it, but it's still really difficult. She doesn't eat, barely drinks and sleeps all the time. Her body is shutting down and I just keep praying that He will take her Home soon.
Okay folks. I hope that wherever you are, you're going to enjoy the New Years celebration safely. If you're drinking, don't drive. If you're on the roads, be careful of people that are driving intoxicated.
I love you all dearly, and see you in the New Year!