I AM SO SICK!
I have come to and understanding about myself. I am way too nice and way too trusting. There is no more daddy he fell off hard and I am so sick of his shit I can't even believe I let myself put up with it for so fuckin long. I am sick of being miserable I am sick of all his lies and bullshit and so I have decided to once and for all move on. I already have a candidate lined up. A fine drill instructor and not the one from before. Its a new one. I met him at the chow hall the other day. He seems to be pretty cool. I am not looking for anything for the long run with this guy but it is fun while it lasts. I am a new woman with new goals and higher standards for what I want and I think that a drill intructor is of very high starndards in my book. Hey you cannot go wrong with that smokey and campaigne cover. Yummmm. But on the other hand I will have to say that I am not going to be as nice as I am and I am hesitant to trust anyone...here I mean my girlz have nothing to worry about. If I find myself all fucking about this guy again I want you guys to just stop talking to me cause I don't want to exist of I am going to be that stupid. Other then that my life is going pretty great. I got a hot guy and great friends and I love you all for being so supportive in my time of insanity and I am sorry for acting so stupid and for pushing you away for some guy who was never worth my time to begin with. My girls mean so much more to me then he ever will and I love yaa to death. Well gotta go and I will talk to yall later!!!