this is life, (4/?)
Title: This is Life
Author: Lily
Rating: PG-15
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl or any of the characters. Gossip Girl belongs to Cecily Ziegesar, Josh Schwartz, Stephanie Savage and the CW.
Summary: Post 1.10. Takes place after Chuck sees Nate and Blair kissing. What would have happened, if Blair hadn’t slept with Nate and Chuck had apologized to her?
A/N - This is my first fic, so don't be too hard on me. :) Special thanks to my beta, Anki. *hugs*
Previous Chapters:
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
*
“You know it's love, when all you want is that person to be happy - even if you're not part of their happiness.”
Julia Roberts
*
In the middle of the night Chuck suddenly woke up. He felt a warm body pressed against his tightly and sighed contentedly. Blair.
Opening his eyes, he saw her smooth leg draped over his and their fingers intertwined on his chest. He turned his body away slightly, so he could look at her face and couldn’t help but smile.
Her expression was so soft and beautiful that he felt his heart swelling. He loved watching Blair sleeping. He had loved it since the night after Victrola, when she had fallen asleep and he had carried her into her bed. He hadn’t understood then, why he hadn’t been able to tear his eyes away from her.
She mumbled a little and clutched his hand even tighter, as if she was sensing him moving away.
His left hand absentmindedly lifted from the side to push a strand behind her ear and he caressed the soft skin on her cheek with his thumb. She sighed happily in her sleep, leaning her head on his chest.
Pulling her closer to him, he was about to fall asleep again, when he heard the sharp knock on his door. What the hell?
He groaned and cursed whoever had decided to show up at his suite. Carefully covering Blair in the blanket, he closed the door to his bedroom behind his back and walked over to receive the unsolicited visitor.
He opened the door annoyed and was shocked, when he saw who it was.
“Nathaniel.”
--
Somewhere deep in her mind, Blair noticed the change of the temperature. She shifted uncomfortably. Something was wrong. Fluttering her eyelashes sleepily she reached across the bed and realised, that she was alone. In Chuck’s bed.
He was gone.
She felt a horrible feeling creeping into her stomach. He had decided to just leave the bed after she had fallen asleep? Blair sat up slowly and closed her eyes, willing herself not to panic. When she opened them again, her pupils adjusted to the darkness and she slid off the bed.
“Chuck?” she whispered his name.
Blair noticed the dim glimmer of light coming from the door and heard two men talking. Pressing her ears to the door, she tried to catch their lines.
“Nathaniel, what are you doing here so late?” she heard Chuck’s sleepy voice. She froze.
Then she heard someone, she supposed it was Nate, dropping on the couch.
“Chuck. It’s only a little past ten. I really need your help.” she heard Nate saying.
--
Chuck had been a little puzzled, when Nate had walked in like he had just won something. Wasn’t he supposed to be depressed over his break-up with Blair?
Chuck sighed. “Well, hurry up. I want to go sleep.”
“What has gotten into you? Need your beauty rest?” Nate teased him. When he saw Chuck’s face and immediately quieted down.
“Uhm… I need your advice on Serena,” Nate quickly got to the point.
“Serena?” Chuck turned around sharply and looked at him confused.
“Yes, I…” Nate looked around uncomfortably. “I told her I loved her at the party.”
“You did what?!” Chuck exclaimed acidulously. “What about Blair?”
Nate breathed out a sigh. “I don’t know, man. It’s just… Serena’s amazing. I’ve never met anyone like her.”
“Blair doesn’t know yet, does she?”
“She heard me when I told Serena this,” Nate looked away, not meeting his eyes.
Chuck finally understood. “Well, you couldn’t have broken up with Blair, before telling Serena this, could you?”
Nate was caught off guard at Chuck’s detesting face and loathing tone. Chuck had never cared about any girl; had never judged him, Nate, for hurting someone, basically because he didn’t have a real relationship himself, this was really… strange.
But whatever. Chuck was his best friend, Nate could tell him anything.
“Well… I was hoping to see first, if Serena has feelings for me too-”
Chuck was fighting hard to not just go over and punch him. How dare he to just toy around with Blair like that? He tried to keep his emotions at bay, when he started talking, his voice shaking from anger.
“Nathaniel, you need to… figure out who means more to you. It’s not fair to treat Blair like you do, to both of them.”
His voice had gone down at the end and Nate understood, standing up.
“Thanks, man.” he said, before exiting the suite.
--
Blair hurried back to the bed, hopping under the sheets. Her heart hammered in her chest and thousands of thoughts were racing through her mind. She tried to calm herself, but couldn’t fail, but notice, how the corners of her mouth steadily curled upwards.
Had Chuck just supported her cause instead of his best friend’s?
Feeling Chuck lying back down in the bed next to her, she pretended to be asleep. After some time she turned around slowly, to see if he was asleep.
“Blair?” He immediately noticed it and turned to her. “How long have you been awake?”
She even didn’t try to act like she had just woken, he would notice anyway.
“Long enough,” she said and smiled.
He face was unreadable and somehow she had moved up to him and was lying close to him, feeling his warm breath on her face.
“Thank you,” she breathed.
“You’re welcome,” he whispered with a raspy voice.
She was too close. Far too close. Sliding up the last inches that separated them, she lifted her hand and cupped one side of his face in her hand, searching for some sign in his eyes.
Suddenly her cell rang.
Sighing, she moved away from Chuck. Blair propped up against her pillow and grabbed her phone, answering it.
“B, is everything okay?” Serena’s voice sounded alarmed.
Blair rolled her eyes. Why had she known exactly that it would be her? “Serena, I’m fine. Don’t worry-”
“Nate has been looking for you anywhere, B. Where are you?”
“S, I told you I’m fine, why is it so important where I am?”
“Blair, did you hear me? Nate is looking for you. He wants to tell you something. It’s New Year’s, I can’t believe you forgot that. Do you remember how you always made sure you two are together on New Year’s Eve?”
‘They say the way you spend New Year’s Eve is the way you'll spend the next year’, her Dad had told her once. Sure she remembered. Her life had literally insisted of making sure, Nate was on her side on that special day every year ever since that.
“S. Can we talk tomorrow? Please?” Blair didn’t have the patience to deal with her right now.
Especially not, when she was thinking about, what would have happened, if Serena hadn't called. Would she have kissed Chuck? Would they be making out at this moment? Not that she would want to make out with him. Who are you kidding anymore, B? You’d love to -
“Fine, my mom’s inviting you to brunch tomorrow.”
Blair sighed. “Text me time and address, okay?”
“Okay. I’ll see you tomorrow then. Happy New Year, B.”
“You too, S. Love you. Bye.” Blair hung up.
“Who was that?” Chuck asked.
“Serena,” Blair tossed the cell back into her purse, “she told me, that Nate’s trying to find me.”
Chuck stirred uncomfortably. He was struggling between just letting the Nate and Blair thing go, and helping them to get back together - even if Nate couldn’t make her happy. Because he was sure, that Chuck Bass couldn’t either make her happy either. He was only good for hurting the people who were around him. Always the dark villain beside Nate, who just happened to be a knight in shining armor.
“Do you want me to call him? It’s still… eleven thirty. He could manage to make it in time,” he finally said, clenching his jaw. ‘Please. Please don’t let her say yes,’ He prayed silently.
She smiled and realised how much Chuck had actually done for her since he had apologized after Cotillion. He was already about to get up when he saw her smiling at him, thankfully for calling Nate. Then she shook her head.
“Maybe it’s just not right, if it doesn’t happen on its own.” she said.
He looked at her in wonderment. She lay back down beside him and kissed his cheek softly, smiling, when he was caught off guard. He wasn’t accustomed to be treated this… tender. But he wasn’t going to lie. It felt amazing.
She giggled against his chest and realised, that this was exactly the place she wanted to be.
--
“Yes?” Serena answered the incoming call.
“Serena, have you seen Blair?” she heard Nate’s voice.
“No… she wouldn’t tell me where she is.”
Nate sighed.
“But my mom’s invited you to Brunch tomorrow - she said she’ll come too.”
“Okay, I will be there. I have to tell you something. Both of you.”
Nate ended the call and stared at the screen poring.
--
To be continued
Author: Lily
Rating: PG-15
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl or any of the characters. Gossip Girl belongs to Cecily Ziegesar, Josh Schwartz, Stephanie Savage and the CW.
Summary: Post 1.10. Takes place after Chuck sees Nate and Blair kissing. What would have happened, if Blair hadn’t slept with Nate and Chuck had apologized to her?
A/N - This is my first fic, so don't be too hard on me. :) Special thanks to my beta, Anki. *hugs*
Previous Chapters:
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
*
“You know it's love, when all you want is that person to be happy - even if you're not part of their happiness.”
Julia Roberts
*
In the middle of the night Chuck suddenly woke up. He felt a warm body pressed against his tightly and sighed contentedly. Blair.
Opening his eyes, he saw her smooth leg draped over his and their fingers intertwined on his chest. He turned his body away slightly, so he could look at her face and couldn’t help but smile.
Her expression was so soft and beautiful that he felt his heart swelling. He loved watching Blair sleeping. He had loved it since the night after Victrola, when she had fallen asleep and he had carried her into her bed. He hadn’t understood then, why he hadn’t been able to tear his eyes away from her.
She mumbled a little and clutched his hand even tighter, as if she was sensing him moving away.
His left hand absentmindedly lifted from the side to push a strand behind her ear and he caressed the soft skin on her cheek with his thumb. She sighed happily in her sleep, leaning her head on his chest.
Pulling her closer to him, he was about to fall asleep again, when he heard the sharp knock on his door. What the hell?
He groaned and cursed whoever had decided to show up at his suite. Carefully covering Blair in the blanket, he closed the door to his bedroom behind his back and walked over to receive the unsolicited visitor.
He opened the door annoyed and was shocked, when he saw who it was.
“Nathaniel.”
--
Somewhere deep in her mind, Blair noticed the change of the temperature. She shifted uncomfortably. Something was wrong. Fluttering her eyelashes sleepily she reached across the bed and realised, that she was alone. In Chuck’s bed.
He was gone.
She felt a horrible feeling creeping into her stomach. He had decided to just leave the bed after she had fallen asleep? Blair sat up slowly and closed her eyes, willing herself not to panic. When she opened them again, her pupils adjusted to the darkness and she slid off the bed.
“Chuck?” she whispered his name.
Blair noticed the dim glimmer of light coming from the door and heard two men talking. Pressing her ears to the door, she tried to catch their lines.
“Nathaniel, what are you doing here so late?” she heard Chuck’s sleepy voice. She froze.
Then she heard someone, she supposed it was Nate, dropping on the couch.
“Chuck. It’s only a little past ten. I really need your help.” she heard Nate saying.
--
Chuck had been a little puzzled, when Nate had walked in like he had just won something. Wasn’t he supposed to be depressed over his break-up with Blair?
Chuck sighed. “Well, hurry up. I want to go sleep.”
“What has gotten into you? Need your beauty rest?” Nate teased him. When he saw Chuck’s face and immediately quieted down.
“Uhm… I need your advice on Serena,” Nate quickly got to the point.
“Serena?” Chuck turned around sharply and looked at him confused.
“Yes, I…” Nate looked around uncomfortably. “I told her I loved her at the party.”
“You did what?!” Chuck exclaimed acidulously. “What about Blair?”
Nate breathed out a sigh. “I don’t know, man. It’s just… Serena’s amazing. I’ve never met anyone like her.”
“Blair doesn’t know yet, does she?”
“She heard me when I told Serena this,” Nate looked away, not meeting his eyes.
Chuck finally understood. “Well, you couldn’t have broken up with Blair, before telling Serena this, could you?”
Nate was caught off guard at Chuck’s detesting face and loathing tone. Chuck had never cared about any girl; had never judged him, Nate, for hurting someone, basically because he didn’t have a real relationship himself, this was really… strange.
But whatever. Chuck was his best friend, Nate could tell him anything.
“Well… I was hoping to see first, if Serena has feelings for me too-”
Chuck was fighting hard to not just go over and punch him. How dare he to just toy around with Blair like that? He tried to keep his emotions at bay, when he started talking, his voice shaking from anger.
“Nathaniel, you need to… figure out who means more to you. It’s not fair to treat Blair like you do, to both of them.”
His voice had gone down at the end and Nate understood, standing up.
“Thanks, man.” he said, before exiting the suite.
--
Blair hurried back to the bed, hopping under the sheets. Her heart hammered in her chest and thousands of thoughts were racing through her mind. She tried to calm herself, but couldn’t fail, but notice, how the corners of her mouth steadily curled upwards.
Had Chuck just supported her cause instead of his best friend’s?
Feeling Chuck lying back down in the bed next to her, she pretended to be asleep. After some time she turned around slowly, to see if he was asleep.
“Blair?” He immediately noticed it and turned to her. “How long have you been awake?”
She even didn’t try to act like she had just woken, he would notice anyway.
“Long enough,” she said and smiled.
He face was unreadable and somehow she had moved up to him and was lying close to him, feeling his warm breath on her face.
“Thank you,” she breathed.
“You’re welcome,” he whispered with a raspy voice.
She was too close. Far too close. Sliding up the last inches that separated them, she lifted her hand and cupped one side of his face in her hand, searching for some sign in his eyes.
Suddenly her cell rang.
Sighing, she moved away from Chuck. Blair propped up against her pillow and grabbed her phone, answering it.
“B, is everything okay?” Serena’s voice sounded alarmed.
Blair rolled her eyes. Why had she known exactly that it would be her? “Serena, I’m fine. Don’t worry-”
“Nate has been looking for you anywhere, B. Where are you?”
“S, I told you I’m fine, why is it so important where I am?”
“Blair, did you hear me? Nate is looking for you. He wants to tell you something. It’s New Year’s, I can’t believe you forgot that. Do you remember how you always made sure you two are together on New Year’s Eve?”
‘They say the way you spend New Year’s Eve is the way you'll spend the next year’, her Dad had told her once. Sure she remembered. Her life had literally insisted of making sure, Nate was on her side on that special day every year ever since that.
“S. Can we talk tomorrow? Please?” Blair didn’t have the patience to deal with her right now.
Especially not, when she was thinking about, what would have happened, if Serena hadn't called. Would she have kissed Chuck? Would they be making out at this moment? Not that she would want to make out with him. Who are you kidding anymore, B? You’d love to -
“Fine, my mom’s inviting you to brunch tomorrow.”
Blair sighed. “Text me time and address, okay?”
“Okay. I’ll see you tomorrow then. Happy New Year, B.”
“You too, S. Love you. Bye.” Blair hung up.
“Who was that?” Chuck asked.
“Serena,” Blair tossed the cell back into her purse, “she told me, that Nate’s trying to find me.”
Chuck stirred uncomfortably. He was struggling between just letting the Nate and Blair thing go, and helping them to get back together - even if Nate couldn’t make her happy. Because he was sure, that Chuck Bass couldn’t either make her happy either. He was only good for hurting the people who were around him. Always the dark villain beside Nate, who just happened to be a knight in shining armor.
“Do you want me to call him? It’s still… eleven thirty. He could manage to make it in time,” he finally said, clenching his jaw. ‘Please. Please don’t let her say yes,’ He prayed silently.
She smiled and realised how much Chuck had actually done for her since he had apologized after Cotillion. He was already about to get up when he saw her smiling at him, thankfully for calling Nate. Then she shook her head.
“Maybe it’s just not right, if it doesn’t happen on its own.” she said.
He looked at her in wonderment. She lay back down beside him and kissed his cheek softly, smiling, when he was caught off guard. He wasn’t accustomed to be treated this… tender. But he wasn’t going to lie. It felt amazing.
She giggled against his chest and realised, that this was exactly the place she wanted to be.
--
“Yes?” Serena answered the incoming call.
“Serena, have you seen Blair?” she heard Nate’s voice.
“No… she wouldn’t tell me where she is.”
Nate sighed.
“But my mom’s invited you to Brunch tomorrow - she said she’ll come too.”
“Okay, I will be there. I have to tell you something. Both of you.”
Nate ended the call and stared at the screen poring.
--
To be continued