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So I never write about myself on here anymore and I'm bored and have alot on my mind so I'm about to write about it.
Life is good. Its stagnant right now, but good. I have great friends, great family, I got Jesus, and I am making good money..but everything just doesn't feel right.
I finally met my new "little brother." I signed up to be a Big Brother for Big Brother/Big Sisters and I finally met my little brother. He is a 10 year old boy named Seth. He loves baseball, animals and soccer. We are hanging out for the first time one on one on Saturday and I am beyond stoked about it. We might go to a Huntsville Stars game. Who knows. He rules and expect to see lots of pictures soon cause we are going to tear Huntsville apart.
I'm pretty lonley. I thought I was over the whole feeling lonley thing, but I guess not. I usually don't get sad or lonley anymore but I am now and have been for about a week. I miss companionship and feeling like I have a girl that is a best friend that I can put 100% trust into and be completley head over heels for. I wish I had a girl that I would want to be with non stop but still be ok with not being around her all the time. There just arn't any in this town.
I don't feel right in this town anymore. I have great friends here and am making new ones, but this doesn't feel like my place. I know it is, and it has nothing to do with those friends or anything. I mean I have a great job with insurance and good pay, but I'm used to moving often and I have been here for 7 or 8 years. I'm ready to go somewhere, but I don't have the money, faith, job, friends, and courage to do it. So I'm just stuck here for God knows how long.
Most people feel extra lonley in the summer time cause of all the "summer flings" but I feel that way in the Fall, and yet I still want it to be fall so bad! I love that time of year and hate it at the same time. I love that feeling of driving around on a Fall day and its cold, you have your favorite "sad bastard" album on and the entire sky is just one big grey cloud and you feel as if you are the only person on the entire world. Its such a great feeling, but then you get back to realitly and realize that you arnt.
I have been getting upset latley cause working at a mall I hear customers complain about petty things like not enough room in their house, or car, or not having clothes to wear to church but there are people dieing in this very town with money or friends or clothes or a home. I don't even want to get started about places like Africa (i.e. Darfur). Where do these people get off complaining about their life like its important. Use to money you use to fill your land yacht to help organizations. Get active and do something. I know this hypocrital in a post of me just complaing about my life...but get over it.
Thats my life. Oh and one more thing. I wish an endless amount of gas so I could go to Indiana, Kentucky, Knoxville, Nashville, Johnson City, Florida, Smokey Mountains, Canada, Seattle, and New York.
Oh well.
I love you all. Lets not tip toe around broken dreams and lost emotions anymore. Say what you want and fuck anyone who gets on your nuts about it.
Life is good. Its stagnant right now, but good. I have great friends, great family, I got Jesus, and I am making good money..but everything just doesn't feel right.
I finally met my new "little brother." I signed up to be a Big Brother for Big Brother/Big Sisters and I finally met my little brother. He is a 10 year old boy named Seth. He loves baseball, animals and soccer. We are hanging out for the first time one on one on Saturday and I am beyond stoked about it. We might go to a Huntsville Stars game. Who knows. He rules and expect to see lots of pictures soon cause we are going to tear Huntsville apart.
I'm pretty lonley. I thought I was over the whole feeling lonley thing, but I guess not. I usually don't get sad or lonley anymore but I am now and have been for about a week. I miss companionship and feeling like I have a girl that is a best friend that I can put 100% trust into and be completley head over heels for. I wish I had a girl that I would want to be with non stop but still be ok with not being around her all the time. There just arn't any in this town.
I don't feel right in this town anymore. I have great friends here and am making new ones, but this doesn't feel like my place. I know it is, and it has nothing to do with those friends or anything. I mean I have a great job with insurance and good pay, but I'm used to moving often and I have been here for 7 or 8 years. I'm ready to go somewhere, but I don't have the money, faith, job, friends, and courage to do it. So I'm just stuck here for God knows how long.
Most people feel extra lonley in the summer time cause of all the "summer flings" but I feel that way in the Fall, and yet I still want it to be fall so bad! I love that time of year and hate it at the same time. I love that feeling of driving around on a Fall day and its cold, you have your favorite "sad bastard" album on and the entire sky is just one big grey cloud and you feel as if you are the only person on the entire world. Its such a great feeling, but then you get back to realitly and realize that you arnt.
I have been getting upset latley cause working at a mall I hear customers complain about petty things like not enough room in their house, or car, or not having clothes to wear to church but there are people dieing in this very town with money or friends or clothes or a home. I don't even want to get started about places like Africa (i.e. Darfur). Where do these people get off complaining about their life like its important. Use to money you use to fill your land yacht to help organizations. Get active and do something. I know this hypocrital in a post of me just complaing about my life...but get over it.
Thats my life. Oh and one more thing. I wish an endless amount of gas so I could go to Indiana, Kentucky, Knoxville, Nashville, Johnson City, Florida, Smokey Mountains, Canada, Seattle, and New York.
Oh well.
I love you all. Lets not tip toe around broken dreams and lost emotions anymore. Say what you want and fuck anyone who gets on your nuts about it.