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stephen wants me to move in with him up in chch he has his own house, and i love him and josh to bits,.
i quit my job at shell.
but for the past 8 months all i have worry about is me and only me ,i can buy what i want when i want and not have to awnser to any1 at all.
i dont know if i can be dependant on sum1 else again,
not being able to do what i want when i want,
and to be brutally honest i dont think i can give up the stripping or the working.
YES IAM A HOOKER.
i dont know if i can give up the thousands im making in just a few days,
i was one of the ugliest people at my school,
now people want to pay me 135 for half and hour of my time, sum of the men have had wives leave them and just want to chat and cuddle,
now its easy money, i cant go back to a normal job where i work really hard and get paid fuck all.
thats what the sex industry does to you , you get sucked in you love the money you love the way it makes u feel, and when u get into a relationship with sum1 u dont want to give it up u dont want a normal job, i have made 4,300 in three weeks, for very little effort, hand job there faking orgasim here,
prostitution is one of the oldest trades in the world ,its not as horriable as sum people think until u have been there, i had extremly low self estemm, i go into work and theres guys telling me how gorgeous iam and i deserve better than my job its makes me feel good about myself, and i hate that.
i hate that i have to sleep with men for money to feel good about myself, but on the other hand enjoy it , i cant win.
and i dont know if i can give that up to be with stephan, going back to living on a budget , having to work hard, clean, look after josh, yet he has givien up so much to be with me, he has turned his and his sons world upside dwn for me , and im being selfish but not knowing if i can give up fucking other men for him.
its just so sad
i quit my job at shell.
but for the past 8 months all i have worry about is me and only me ,i can buy what i want when i want and not have to awnser to any1 at all.
i dont know if i can be dependant on sum1 else again,
not being able to do what i want when i want,
and to be brutally honest i dont think i can give up the stripping or the working.
YES IAM A HOOKER.
i dont know if i can give up the thousands im making in just a few days,
i was one of the ugliest people at my school,
now people want to pay me 135 for half and hour of my time, sum of the men have had wives leave them and just want to chat and cuddle,
now its easy money, i cant go back to a normal job where i work really hard and get paid fuck all.
thats what the sex industry does to you , you get sucked in you love the money you love the way it makes u feel, and when u get into a relationship with sum1 u dont want to give it up u dont want a normal job, i have made 4,300 in three weeks, for very little effort, hand job there faking orgasim here,
prostitution is one of the oldest trades in the world ,its not as horriable as sum people think until u have been there, i had extremly low self estemm, i go into work and theres guys telling me how gorgeous iam and i deserve better than my job its makes me feel good about myself, and i hate that.
i hate that i have to sleep with men for money to feel good about myself, but on the other hand enjoy it , i cant win.
and i dont know if i can give that up to be with stephan, going back to living on a budget , having to work hard, clean, look after josh, yet he has givien up so much to be with me, he has turned his and his sons world upside dwn for me , and im being selfish but not knowing if i can give up fucking other men for him.
its just so sad