coming to understand my feelings for the wolf.

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I'm taking back all the thoughts I had over New Moon and Eclipse. I FINALLY figured out why I was so unhappy with both. Jacob Black. I love him. I really do, and I have finally come to admit that I really love him. I think, because Edward is just so perfect that I didn't want to say "I love Jacob" because, then, it felt like I was choosing him over Edward. For awhile now it's been "I'm with the vampires" and " I run with wolves" and I've been teetering in the middle. I can't choose. But I can choose for Bella. For Bella, it's Jacob. All the way. I'm just angry because I know Bella will end up with Edward... he deserves to have Bella, and she belongs with him. I'm know that is how this story will end. I know it because how else could it end? Could you honestly see Stephenie writing "And so, Bella dumped the perfect. gorgeous vampire of her dreams and married Jacob Black"... No. I'm sad because I know this and I so badly want Jacob to be happy. He deserves happiness just as Edward does. There's only one Bella (thankfully). 
*phew*

I know, this is pointless but I just have to get out my feelings for this book. I've invested too much time and too much love to not think these things through.

Any thoughts?