What if
Sometimes I have this thought:
What if I woke up tomorrow and things were not the way they are today? What if I woke up and didn't give a rat's ass about the people in my life that mean the most? I mean, seriously. My ex (no, I haven't spoken to him in a while) lives in this state of denial, that tha girls don't exist while I have my angels 24.7.365. What if I woke up tomorrow and decided I wanted that life instead of the one I have?
What if I woke up tomorrow and just decided I was sick of my family, my Mom, my Dad and all their bullshit and I just stopped dealing with it. WOuld my life be better?
Or if I woke up tomorrow and I didn't love Phil anymore? I mean, I'd look over at his picture and instead of that warm happiness I had disdain and just outright disgust? Would I even recognize my life? Would anyone even care?
I think about weird stuff like that at times...bizarre...
Oh well...I have the musical to night..dropping Meg off and going to price a digital camera at Target...I think I can get a decent Polaroid for $90. So much for my AbLounger! Priority! I need the camera...I can wait on the lounger...so I look like a blob...at least I'll have a decent camera to document it!
What if I woke up tomorrow and things were not the way they are today? What if I woke up and didn't give a rat's ass about the people in my life that mean the most? I mean, seriously. My ex (no, I haven't spoken to him in a while) lives in this state of denial, that tha girls don't exist while I have my angels 24.7.365. What if I woke up tomorrow and decided I wanted that life instead of the one I have?
What if I woke up tomorrow and just decided I was sick of my family, my Mom, my Dad and all their bullshit and I just stopped dealing with it. WOuld my life be better?
Or if I woke up tomorrow and I didn't love Phil anymore? I mean, I'd look over at his picture and instead of that warm happiness I had disdain and just outright disgust? Would I even recognize my life? Would anyone even care?
I think about weird stuff like that at times...bizarre...
Oh well...I have the musical to night..dropping Meg off and going to price a digital camera at Target...I think I can get a decent Polaroid for $90. So much for my AbLounger! Priority! I need the camera...I can wait on the lounger...so I look like a blob...at least I'll have a decent camera to document it!