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A lot of weird shit is going on at work. It's just wearing on me. There is so much behind the scenes drama, and I just don't like drama. I think it's time to start looking for something new. I normally don't talk about work on my LJ, but at this point I just don't give a shit anymore. Our admin is very nosey, and has a very big mouth.. he monitors everywhere you go on the net, and I think I have looked on LJ.com a couple of times while at work, so I've been keeping work on the downlow.
I'd really like for things to work out there, but I just don't see that happening. I've been seeing people turning into lapdog's there, always at the beck and call of others, and reaping the rewards of being true brown nosers... I just can't do that shit. It sickens me to be honest.
Is it wrong to give a gift certificate for a friends baby shower? I procrastinated as usual, and her baby shower is on Friday. I went to the store she said she was registered at, but she wasn't on their list. So after perusing the aisles for a while I finally gave up. She can get whatever she likes with a gift certificate. I just hate giving them as gifts, it seems so informal and as if no forethought was put into it. I tried, but I realized that I really don't know how to shop for babies. I picked out some cute shit, but then realized it was for babies 18 months old! I'm so out of touch when it comes to babies. I have never changed a babies diaper in my LIFE! When they start crying I freak out, I know babies cry, but I just want to help them and make their tears go away. I am VERY neurotic, and I am not ashamed to admit it, but I can see it getting in the way when I have a baby. I'll probably want to lay mattresses down on the floor around the crib in case it falls out.
I'm so not ready to be a mother yet, I realize it more and more every day. I have been noticing my biological clock has been ticking lately though, so I have been pushing to move out so we can find a place that allows pets, and get a French Bulldog. I need something to mother dammit!;)
I'd really like for things to work out there, but I just don't see that happening. I've been seeing people turning into lapdog's there, always at the beck and call of others, and reaping the rewards of being true brown nosers... I just can't do that shit. It sickens me to be honest.
Is it wrong to give a gift certificate for a friends baby shower? I procrastinated as usual, and her baby shower is on Friday. I went to the store she said she was registered at, but she wasn't on their list. So after perusing the aisles for a while I finally gave up. She can get whatever she likes with a gift certificate. I just hate giving them as gifts, it seems so informal and as if no forethought was put into it. I tried, but I realized that I really don't know how to shop for babies. I picked out some cute shit, but then realized it was for babies 18 months old! I'm so out of touch when it comes to babies. I have never changed a babies diaper in my LIFE! When they start crying I freak out, I know babies cry, but I just want to help them and make their tears go away. I am VERY neurotic, and I am not ashamed to admit it, but I can see it getting in the way when I have a baby. I'll probably want to lay mattresses down on the floor around the crib in case it falls out.
I'm so not ready to be a mother yet, I realize it more and more every day. I have been noticing my biological clock has been ticking lately though, so I have been pushing to move out so we can find a place that allows pets, and get a French Bulldog. I need something to mother dammit!;)