a little slow on the uptake

[lazysun]

even though most of youse seem to have already moved way beyond this meme, i feel the need to participate

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[graceness]

do you plan to have any more children? can you have any more?

[lazysun]

Wow, I wish this question was easier to answer. Well, the short answer to the second one is "yes", with a month's notice. :)

As for whether or not we plan to, well, we've talked about it. I know Chris wants a girl, which is something we've discussed quite a bit. I don't care about gender; I just would love to actually be there for all the things we missed with John. I've missed WAY too much of his childhood, and I don't want to do that to another kid. At the same time, I fear greatly that I would alienate the son I already have by ... well, trying again. I fear that he will think that I didn't love him enough, or that I didn't want him. I don't know how he'd respond, and so I'm terrified of losing him that I don't want to even explore the option at this point (not to mention not being in a very good place financially or emotionally to be trying right now). So, maybe when he's older... which at least still gives me time, since I had him so early...

[cobie]

i'm impressed with how much thought you've given this.

[lazysun]

well, I've had seven years to think about it... :)

[cobie]

every little thing i discover about you makes me love you that much more.

*hug*