menses update
today was a break through. my left ovary is working now. i for the first time in my had aconsecutive cycle.
thus the post madness syndrome.
i don't feel particulary good about the cutting i did. but now i know why i was feelign this way.
i am so happy my body is beginning to work right.
i know this may seem trivial for some people. but i am so excited.
i woke up real stiff this morning. i was still covered in blood from last night.
and when i awoke i felt funny. i thought i just had to pee. but for split second i thought did i gt my period? i looked on my bed and i didn't see any new blkoodstains. so i went to the bathroom. and then when i stood up blood just came gushing down my legs and spaltting ont he floor. i took a pic. becasue i love the site of blood.
so i feel kind of good about it.
having really bad cramps though. but i was wondering why my left ovary was hurting. i can only assume the egg was released fro mit yesterday.
i am still concerned with how devastated i am with my pms.
seriously its not joke. i get really depressed and anxious. and really crazy.
and god my left sid eis hurting.
but i feel good about it.
althogh i still feel concerned. becasue i still want to keep cutting myself. and i am supposed to do amodeling job in june or july.
i sometimes feel i'm to old. to still be trying to do this stuff.
well iam too distracted to write anymore. i will try and update later
thus the post madness syndrome.
i don't feel particulary good about the cutting i did. but now i know why i was feelign this way.
i am so happy my body is beginning to work right.
i know this may seem trivial for some people. but i am so excited.
i woke up real stiff this morning. i was still covered in blood from last night.
and when i awoke i felt funny. i thought i just had to pee. but for split second i thought did i gt my period? i looked on my bed and i didn't see any new blkoodstains. so i went to the bathroom. and then when i stood up blood just came gushing down my legs and spaltting ont he floor. i took a pic. becasue i love the site of blood.
so i feel kind of good about it.
having really bad cramps though. but i was wondering why my left ovary was hurting. i can only assume the egg was released fro mit yesterday.
i am still concerned with how devastated i am with my pms.
seriously its not joke. i get really depressed and anxious. and really crazy.
and god my left sid eis hurting.
but i feel good about it.
althogh i still feel concerned. becasue i still want to keep cutting myself. and i am supposed to do amodeling job in june or july.
i sometimes feel i'm to old. to still be trying to do this stuff.
well iam too distracted to write anymore. i will try and update later