Wow it's like dusting off an old book
So what happening whats happing......oh one of my best friends is getting married and I can't go.
This has nothing to do with that.
My heart longs for a familiar love to keep out the dark.....wait thats not even true the truth is I play the part people need me to play a lot of the time. I think that sometimes people need a nudge to do what they want to do and I give it to them. In the last stages of my relationship with Clarity ( we won't use her real name) I rooted for her but she has chosen to go away. If she didn't my love would of been would have been boundless but now I'm numb. So I lost and won all at the same time I won because I found out in the end that she wasn't will to put up with what I felt and she couldn't forgive me. Plus she is happier now which is what I wanted for her because she could be truly happy with me anytime soon. The loss of ..well I wont use her name either (M.S.W.) still weighs on me daily. However, true believers don't cry for me I'm alone and without a family of my own but I know who and what I am, finally I can have a healthy relationship and stop this self destructive behavior. So in the end the town believes the cowboy is dead but really his death was faked as he rides bleeding into the sunset towards a new town, a sad melody plays as it know he rides alone, his only companion is his journey, his only assurance is dwindling pain, as he mourns his lost love.
This has nothing to do with that.
My heart longs for a familiar love to keep out the dark.....wait thats not even true the truth is I play the part people need me to play a lot of the time. I think that sometimes people need a nudge to do what they want to do and I give it to them. In the last stages of my relationship with Clarity ( we won't use her real name) I rooted for her but she has chosen to go away. If she didn't my love would of been would have been boundless but now I'm numb. So I lost and won all at the same time I won because I found out in the end that she wasn't will to put up with what I felt and she couldn't forgive me. Plus she is happier now which is what I wanted for her because she could be truly happy with me anytime soon. The loss of ..well I wont use her name either (M.S.W.) still weighs on me daily. However, true believers don't cry for me I'm alone and without a family of my own but I know who and what I am, finally I can have a healthy relationship and stop this self destructive behavior. So in the end the town believes the cowboy is dead but really his death was faked as he rides bleeding into the sunset towards a new town, a sad melody plays as it know he rides alone, his only companion is his journey, his only assurance is dwindling pain, as he mourns his lost love.