Hmm...finally I will face my f e a r s
Well, right now I'm being forced to face something I never wanted to face. If I would have dealt with this problem of mine earlier, then I would have never been into the mess I'm in now...or any other messes like it. Now I'm sure many people are looking down on me, and I'm sure the whole Narbonne Drama will turn their backs on me from this incident.
I'm not fully sure how I'm going to deal with it. But I've made my decision...complete truth all the way...it's the only way. Enough trying to hide in lies, but what most people don't know is that the rabbit hole goes intensely far. The incident isn't the only thing I'm going to be facing, but a past experience that I hadn't really dealt with, which I believe has caused me to make horrible decisions and destroy myself in the process. I'm scared, but I know it's something I can still survive. I guess this is God's way of pointing me in His direction and bringing me back to Him...I know I can't make it without. Well, this is definitely something to learn from.....I just hope that I don't lose Jenny as a friend when I tell her what's happening..............
I'm not fully sure how I'm going to deal with it. But I've made my decision...complete truth all the way...it's the only way. Enough trying to hide in lies, but what most people don't know is that the rabbit hole goes intensely far. The incident isn't the only thing I'm going to be facing, but a past experience that I hadn't really dealt with, which I believe has caused me to make horrible decisions and destroy myself in the process. I'm scared, but I know it's something I can still survive. I guess this is God's way of pointing me in His direction and bringing me back to Him...I know I can't make it without. Well, this is definitely something to learn from.....I just hope that I don't lose Jenny as a friend when I tell her what's happening..............