Quarter Life Crisis
I am beginning to doubt my ability to be a successful counselor. It seems like lately I can't communicate effectively with new people and it all feels so artificial and intimidating. I feel so lost and I know that part of it is my own insecurities getting in the way of me doing this but I feel like I keep failing. I don't know what to do with myself besides Psychology, I don't know what else i could be good at, I really thought this was it for me but maybe I was wrong. What if I've done all this work for nothing what if this is four years of working so hard just wasted? Then what? I don't have all the time in the world and I want to do something meaningful with my life. It sounds so corney but all I want to do is show others love and concern but somehow I keep failing at this most basic human task and I don't understand what is standing in my way. So far everything I've ever thought that I would be really good at I've failed at, I thought that I would be an amazing RA and I'm not, I thought I was a good friend but I'm not, I thought I would make a great psychologist but I can't even get past the beginning stages of establishing rapport with a client. I feel like nothing right now, for the first time in three years i have no idea what I'm doing with my life and it sucks. What am i so afraid of? I think I'm becoming depressed again because I'm losing interest in everything except sleep, Gene, and the bar, I don't feel like doing anything. This such bad timing, I have to much to do to be depressed. I don't know what to do with myself anymore, I don't know myself anymore and worst of all I think I hate myself. I feel so emo.