It feels like a Monday
I feel like I did so much today, I'm just sooo tired!!
Today was, or would've been, my Mom's birthday, she would've been 44. The weather was perfect for this, beautiful day with a rainy storm at the end. I miss her more han anything anyone can imagine and it never really gets any better because everyday I remember that I can't call her and hear her laugh and that worse than that I'll never see her again in this world. I have no doubts that she's in heaven and finally at peace but I still selfishly wish she was here with us. She really was my favorite person ever I don't really know what to do without her but I just keep trying to just make it through day by day. I still don't really understand that she's really gone, it's just not true in my mind. Even now, four months later, I keep thinking and hoping that I'll just wake up from this dream and the thing that scares me the most is when I realize that I never will. I get that panicky feeling that I got when I first found out and it hurts so much. No one but my brother and sisters can ever truely understand what I feel
Today was, or would've been, my Mom's birthday, she would've been 44. The weather was perfect for this, beautiful day with a rainy storm at the end. I miss her more han anything anyone can imagine and it never really gets any better because everyday I remember that I can't call her and hear her laugh and that worse than that I'll never see her again in this world. I have no doubts that she's in heaven and finally at peace but I still selfishly wish she was here with us. She really was my favorite person ever I don't really know what to do without her but I just keep trying to just make it through day by day. I still don't really understand that she's really gone, it's just not true in my mind. Even now, four months later, I keep thinking and hoping that I'll just wake up from this dream and the thing that scares me the most is when I realize that I never will. I get that panicky feeling that I got when I first found out and it hurts so much. No one but my brother and sisters can ever truely understand what I feel