What's going on in my life
So I haven't written a post in a long time. I think this is largely because I haven't had anything new to write about. But perhaps that's not the truth. I think it would be more accurate to say that I haven't had anything I really want to dwell on. And that's what these posts do for me, often. They let me think about things. I don't want to think, lately.
Last time I write I was turning 30; I'm still 30. Unsurprisingly, my life hasn't changed much just because I'm older.
Work is still work. My contract was slated to be up at the end of this month, but now they have extended it for a month. My future there is still largely uncertain. Unfortunately there are too many people in my department that are already full-time employees, and they can't hire on a new person when we don't have another project lined up yet. Issues with the supervisor are still issues, just more so.
I'm still going out with Andrew, and I am still very happy. We make a great team. I don't think there are many people that I could spend all day at work with and still want to spend all my free time with them. Especially when we're so stressed about work. We have a lot of fun together; recently we bought bicycles and we're trying to ride them all over the place. We also geek out together and spend the night at home: him playing games (OMG Bioshock!) and me knitting. Tonight we're going to a game-fest, actually.
About a month ago I was driving up to Northern California for Andrew's sister's wedding. I was on the freeway (405) in Long Beach and I was rear-ended. Now my life is sort of a mess. I'm dealing with back and wrist pain. My car is totalled.
I am stressed right now. I may not have a job in a month, I don't have a car, and my lease is up soon. So I have to start thinking about looking for a new job, but I don't have a car to get there. And while I'll be getting money for my totalled car, it won't be enough to buy a new car, so I'd have to be making car payments. But I might not have a job to make the money to pay for the car. And how can I even think about looking for apartments? I think I am getting by right now by not thinking about anything, and only dealing with the things that force themself into my face. This isn't a productive way of dealing with things.
Andrew is afraid that I am going to have a nervous breakdown. I think I'm a little afraid of that too.
But right now, sitting next to Andrew, knowing that I have tomorrow off... life still feels pretty good.
Last time I write I was turning 30; I'm still 30. Unsurprisingly, my life hasn't changed much just because I'm older.
Work is still work. My contract was slated to be up at the end of this month, but now they have extended it for a month. My future there is still largely uncertain. Unfortunately there are too many people in my department that are already full-time employees, and they can't hire on a new person when we don't have another project lined up yet. Issues with the supervisor are still issues, just more so.
I'm still going out with Andrew, and I am still very happy. We make a great team. I don't think there are many people that I could spend all day at work with and still want to spend all my free time with them. Especially when we're so stressed about work. We have a lot of fun together; recently we bought bicycles and we're trying to ride them all over the place. We also geek out together and spend the night at home: him playing games (OMG Bioshock!) and me knitting. Tonight we're going to a game-fest, actually.
About a month ago I was driving up to Northern California for Andrew's sister's wedding. I was on the freeway (405) in Long Beach and I was rear-ended. Now my life is sort of a mess. I'm dealing with back and wrist pain. My car is totalled.
I am stressed right now. I may not have a job in a month, I don't have a car, and my lease is up soon. So I have to start thinking about looking for a new job, but I don't have a car to get there. And while I'll be getting money for my totalled car, it won't be enough to buy a new car, so I'd have to be making car payments. But I might not have a job to make the money to pay for the car. And how can I even think about looking for apartments? I think I am getting by right now by not thinking about anything, and only dealing with the things that force themself into my face. This isn't a productive way of dealing with things.
Andrew is afraid that I am going to have a nervous breakdown. I think I'm a little afraid of that too.
But right now, sitting next to Andrew, knowing that I have tomorrow off... life still feels pretty good.