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this is gonna be another long one..
im so unbelieveably confused right now..
i have realized so much in the matter of 2 days..
so me and gina were talking in track earlier.. and she helped me.. a lot.. by telling me some things that i needed to hear.. sarah helped me too.
i realized that conner isnt the same person that he was when i met him. he has changed so much. dont get me wrong hes a really great person. hes just not the person that i liked.. when we met..
when we met i thought of him as the guy that was nice to everybody.. never got mad about anything.. kinda just like laid back.. and thats what i liked so much about him.. slowly when we were going out i started to realize.. no guy is like that.. not even conner.
last night he helped me realize this too. last night.. im not going to lie.. he was saying probably some of the meanest things anybody has ever said to me.. thats when i noticed that no matter what i wanted to believe.. he was changed. and hes not going to change back. i honestly want to be friends with him. even if he was really mean to me =[.. it isnt going to make me hate him.. i dont think i could ever hate him.. idk its just weird like that..
after telling sarah she helped me too. she helped me realize that he isnt the perfect guy i thought he was.. if he had the heart to say the mean things he said to me.. then it probably isnt worth it.. because that proves he isnt that great.
im not trying to badmouth conner.. because he honestly is one of the best people ive ever became friends with. hes a really great guy. hes just not who i thought he was. and thats basically what the point of this entry is.
i know deep down i do still have feelings for him. but i think after today and last night. hopefully it will help them go away.
♥ ♥ ♥
ps.. IM EXCITED FOR FRIDAY =D
im so unbelieveably confused right now..
i have realized so much in the matter of 2 days..
so me and gina were talking in track earlier.. and she helped me.. a lot.. by telling me some things that i needed to hear.. sarah helped me too.
i realized that conner isnt the same person that he was when i met him. he has changed so much. dont get me wrong hes a really great person. hes just not the person that i liked.. when we met..
when we met i thought of him as the guy that was nice to everybody.. never got mad about anything.. kinda just like laid back.. and thats what i liked so much about him.. slowly when we were going out i started to realize.. no guy is like that.. not even conner.
last night he helped me realize this too. last night.. im not going to lie.. he was saying probably some of the meanest things anybody has ever said to me.. thats when i noticed that no matter what i wanted to believe.. he was changed. and hes not going to change back. i honestly want to be friends with him. even if he was really mean to me =[.. it isnt going to make me hate him.. i dont think i could ever hate him.. idk its just weird like that..
after telling sarah she helped me too. she helped me realize that he isnt the perfect guy i thought he was.. if he had the heart to say the mean things he said to me.. then it probably isnt worth it.. because that proves he isnt that great.
im not trying to badmouth conner.. because he honestly is one of the best people ive ever became friends with. hes a really great guy. hes just not who i thought he was. and thats basically what the point of this entry is.
i know deep down i do still have feelings for him. but i think after today and last night. hopefully it will help them go away.
♥ ♥ ♥
ps.. IM EXCITED FOR FRIDAY =D